Jonghyun is running. You could say that it’s not an odd thing to do. Many people run every day. Why though? A lot of them are striving for a good body, so they can be socially accepted. Some are running to get that “runner’s high” that one can grow addicted to. Many just have time on their hands, simply wishing to get rid of all of the energy stored in their bodies to be able to sleep later on. However, Jonghyun’s case was different. He didn’t run for any of those reasons. He could say that he wishes for his reason to be running is one of those, but sadly, it isn’t. It’s much more depressing than that.

Chronic depression. He’s embarrassed to say it, but Jonghyun’s case is depression. Being a singer, he has to have an ideal body. Unblemished. Unscathed. You may have heard that some people cut themselves to cover up emotional pain with physical pain. Of course Jonghyun couldn’t do that because of his job. Even if he wasn’t a singer, he thought it was a ridiculous way to deal with the situation. For years he has been on and off different medicines, none of them really working. He recalls one time how he took a new prescription that just made him extremely hyper. That was the first time he had a mental breakdown. Mixing hyperactivity and extreme unhappiness… was a dangerous thing. It was just one more step in the wrong direction. But, the present time. He has stopped taking medicine and decided to run. The one other person in this world who knows about his problem, his doctor, told him that the one way that seems to work the best, is to run. To just run until your legs give out, to run until the heart feels like it is going to burst.

To one who feels that his life should just cease to exist… it is an amazing feeling.