We needed space from each other, the constant fights and argument over the most trivial things. Like that once, when I had my hair done because I was afraid one day I wouldn’t be appealing to you. You picked on me about it, saying how I overdo it and that I was probably trying to get someone else’ attention. Who needed someone else’ attention? I just needed yours.

It wasn’t always like this. It wasn’t even like this. It started off well, smooth and sweet. We were the cutest couple to the other members and staffs in TS. I can’t remember exactly when things started getting rough because it has been quite a while since we were in good terms for a long period.

Though I admit, I have my faults too, I asked you to stop hanging out with the new friends you made. Sticking my nose into your business but that was only because I cared. They didn’t look decent. In fact, you picked up smoking after knowing them. You know it is something that will affect your health, why did you still picked that up? Because of that we broke into another argument.

How much we had to say of each other every single day, we apologize, be on good terms and then the cycle repeats. Having argument and fights in a relationship is normal but I think what we have is more than what is needed. That isn’t a good sign.

One day, he messaged me telling me to meet him at the usual. It’s a neighborhood park that is a walking distant from my house and TS. Since he is an idol it is hard to go out on actual dates. But that didn’t stop us, when he is given a short break from trainings he would text me to meet him there. He is a really sweet guy and I would never ask for more.

However, only if I knew that when I had him.

Why can’t one actually cherish what they have before it’s gone? Why is one always blinded by what they have in front of them and only realizes when it is gone.

Are you one of them? If you are, take a moment and think of what you have around you now. Appreciate each and everyone’s presence; cherish them before you don’t get the chance to. Neglecting is an action that shouldn’t exist.