Junhong POV;

To be honest I don’t want to go to school today. I don’t want to see them. But if I keep staying at home, mom will nagging at me all the time. Yesterday Jongup forced me to go to school too, so I guess I don’t have a choice. Why they must be dating? Seriously my day is dark like a pitch black since they’re dating.

-in school-

I don’t know if taking a peek already became my habit and today I caught myself peeking at Yongguk hyung’s class again, and I saw them laughing over something together. My heart is broke into a pieces. I cried again. I can’t see them. I don’t want to see them. I ran into my class. I put my head on the table and cried again. I just can’t stop cry.

Third Person POV;

Jongup entered the class and saw the sobbing Junhong.

“Junhong!” Jongup sat beside him and hugged him.

“Jonguppie...I saw them again.” Junhong keep crying.

“Shh... I’m here. I’m here.” Jongup wiped Junhong’s tears. “Don’t cry.”

Junhong POV;

I can’t concetrate with all the lessons today. I kept thinking about Yongguk hyung with Himchan. I can’t erase them from my mind, like they’re stuck already on my mind.

“Junhong, can you help me with my books?” Mr. Song asked. Suddenly I remember the first time I met Yongguk hyung when I brought Mr. Song’s books. Tears started flowing again.

“Sir, Junhong doesn’t feel good today, he’s just recovering because yesterday he’s sick. I’m going to help you, sir.” Jongup suddenly interruped and brought Mr. Song’s books. Ah I’m alone again.

I walked through the hallway. I hoped I won’t meet Yongguk hyung. My tears are still flowing. I just can’t stop cry.

“Junhong.” I knew this voice. His husky voice, the voice that I really like. Why I must meet him? I looked down and keep walking, didn’t dare to see his face. I really hate myself for loving him. I hate myself because I can’t stop loving him.

Third Person POV;

“Junhong.” Yongguk grabbed Junhong’s hand, made Junhong turned around seeing his face.

“Are you crying?” Yongguk looked at Junhong’s swollen eyes. “You must be crying. Tell me, what’s wrong?” asked Yongguk softly. Junhong didn’t answer. He just looked down.

“Junhong, tell me, what’s wrong? Don’t make me worry.”

Junhong looked up. “Just go away with your Himchan.” Junhong left Yongguk confused.

“How did you know that I’m with Himchan?”

“I just knew.” Junhong purposely brushed his shoulder with Yongguk’s and gone, leaving Yongguk confused.

Junhong POV;

I opened my diary, reading back the past entries that mostly written about I’m in love with Yongguk. I just can’t help but smile at it. Suddenly I remember the kiss between Yongguk hyung and Himchan. I cried again.

I wrote a new entry.

Diary-nim,

I really love Yongguk hyung. He’s my everything. Every little things about him, I like it. Our awkward encounter it’s just too unexpected. I never knew that I would fall in love with him after our awkward encounter.

But I want to believe that our awkward encounter is just a dream at the midnight. Because he loves somebody else. He loves Himchan. I want to forget him, but I can’t. I just keep thinking of him like a fool.

I wish I can erase him completely from my life. My day became a pitch black since they’re dating. I wish I can erase him a thousand times. I know it’s not easy. I knew I can’t, no matter how hard I try, I can’t, because I love him so much.

Is it one-sided love? Or is it my greed? I don’t know.

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a/n; an angsty and sad chappie isn't it? and for the diary entry, i got inspiration from two songs. they're pitch black by park shin hye and eraser by ali. that songs are just too sad ;_;

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replies;

@exoonly: he will stay strong!

@Black_x_Rabbit: to be honest jonglo moments are not much in this fic but i'll try to write some jonglo moments <3