Eunhyuk were sitting on the living room couch watching some cheesy romance movie while munching on popcorn with Kyuhyun when Kyuhyun started pondering about their own love story. He had been in love with that little monkey since forever. He was one of the first people to talk to him and make him feel welcome to the group when the rest had shunned him. He was a talented boy and the company wanted him but it had seemed that the group and fans didn’t. It wasn’t love at first sight, more like love at second sight? Or third? At first he had thought that Eunhyuk looked weird – monkey was the right name for him - and then he saw him dancing, limbs moving in ways that he could only dream of doing himself. He was left with his eyes wide open and his jaw somewhere on the floor.

That was when the admiration began.

Love came later at the dorm when he moved in and his own personal hell began. Eunhyuk was at the time like an angel, extending a hand if friendship with a shy smile on his face when Kyuhyun was surrounded by feelings of being unwanted. Sometimes he wondered why he didn’t feel like this about Sungmin when in reality, Sungmin was the first one to talk to him. Why was it only this funny looking monkey making his heart beat like that? Why only him?

That was when the crush began.

Some relationship specialists, therapists rather, say that if you like someone for more than three months, it’s no longer just a crush. I’ve liked him from the moment of my debut, what does that make me? It’s no longer a crush now is it?

Kyuhyun knew for sure that what he was feeling was love when he had the accident. It was like he finally understood. It wasn’t a crush or puppy love. It was real love. He was in love with Eunhyuk. He was in love with a man. His own group member. A friend. God everything was messed up! He was going to ruin everything if he dared to pursue his love and he knew it. He stifled his feelings in his chest, not wanting to cause the members or Eunhyuk any problems with his feelings. He knew that he would have to keep those feelings to himself…maybe forever.

I had kept these feelings to myself for a long time. I became his friend, a close friendship that I cherished and I had everything under control. Everything was okay though until he started changing. It became impossible to ignore him. It was like the little boy had just grown up. The ugly duckling had changed into a swan…an alpha male. He was sti