Dear Siwan-hyung,

Hyung, did you arrive yet? In heaven? How is it? Is it nice there? I hope you feel no pain anymore...

I miss you hyung, it feels so lonely without you here, I think I love you too much..

I cried too much hyung, it hurts a lot to not having you here with me, I can feel it with my body, I think I love you too much..

I can’t wait for the day when we can be together again, and we can love each other for eternity, this is our promise to each other, right? I love you too much, hyung..

I’ll finish everything I need to do with my life well, and later we can meet there, I can’t wait for that day.. Please wait for me, it wouldn’t be that long. I promise!

Please watch over me from there, and if you can, please visit my dream once in a while, that’s the only way to keep me alive..

Hyung, you do know that I love you right?

If only I knew you would left me this early, I would say it more often to you..

Oh God, I love you so, so much hyung.. I really do..

I Love you so much! Please wait for me, I’ll be there soon..

I love you..