Eunhyuk's POV
 

I sat there, looking at Donghae.

He was crying his eyes out and I couldn't even comfort him, 'cause the reason for hid crying was me.

I felt like .

It broke my heart to see him like this.

"Donghae..." I reached my hand for his shoulder, so that I could caress it and whisper him to sleep or something, but he slapped my hand away.

"Andwae! (No!) You just make it worse..." He sobbed.

"But I can't see yu like this! You're my b-, I mean, I really care about you! I don't... I can't stand this!" I screamed.

I mentally punched myself.

I almost had slipped that 'best friend' thing again and that would make it worse.

"Just let me here to calm down. I... I will come when I'm okay. It will be like before. Just... leave me here to forget that I love you." He whispered, looking

straight away.

"Okay." I stood up.

I slowly went to the door, throwing sorrowful gazes to Donghae.

I opened the door and stepped outside.

I shoot one last gaze towards him.

My eyes became teary.

Why did I feel like he'd punched me into my stomach?

The thought of going sent steps to my chest.

Suddenly, I remembered how we met and that I couldn't help but speak with Donghae.

I remembered how we became friends and always were there for each other.

And how many times were we close enough to smell the others scent?

I realized that I still stood in between the door, my gaze still pinned at Donghae.

Had he always been that beautiful?

Again there was this pain in my chest.

My eyes widen.

Was I that stupid?

~ Flashback 10 years ago  ~

Me and Donghae were lying in a big flower field.

"Donghae-ah?" I asked, my eyes closed.

"Nae? (Yes?)"

"What feels love like?" I said and opened my eyes to look at Donghae.

He stared at me, deep in thoughts.

"I think, love is when you always want the other to be happy and it makes you sad whenever the one you love is sad... You always have to think about the

person, you feel sad when that one leaves, your heart is beating fast when you see the person or think about it. Every time you're close to the person you'd

shiver... And it hurts... Love hurts..."

I just nodded and closed my eyes again.

~ End of Flashback ~

I hadn't understand what he meant with the last part.

Now, I did.

He really loved me.

He'd loved me since I was 16 maybe even before that.

He'd said that 'love hurts' and yes, he was right.

For him, love would always hurt 'cause he was in love with the same gender.

Even if I'd feel the same way, there were still his parents, his brother and his friends.

Not everyone accepted same love.

I hadn't understand him all the time.

I stepped inside again.

Closing the door behind me.

"He's gone... I knew it. I knew he wouldn't love me back!" Donghae sobbed.

"What have I thought? His smiles towards me, the touches... That was our friendship! And I threw it away because I just can't... Waeyo? (Why?) *sob* What

have I done wrong that I've to fall for my best friend!? He... ani (no)... We will never be the same... *sob* I'm sure he's shocked... and after that he'll freak out

and disguise me..."  Donghae continued to sob into the 'empty' room.

I wrapped my arms around Donghae's waist.

"Mianhae Donghae... (I'm sorry Donghae...) Chongmal mianhae... (I'm really sorry...) I'm so sorry for not seeing your feelings... for not realizing my own

feelings... and for hurting you that much all this time..." I whispered in his ear.

"E-Eunhyuk?"

"Nae...(Yes...) It's me..."

He turned around, still in my embrace.

His eyes were red and puffy and glittered form tears.

I caressed his cheek with my fingers and kissed his eyelid.

"Eunhyuk... Saranghae...(I love you...)" he said again.

I flinched at his words.

As I realized what I've done I was about to punch me.

'Babo! (Idiot!) Donghae will think that it's just a trick to cheer him up!'

I thought while hoping that Donghae hadn't felt it.

But luck wasn't on my side I guess.

"W-Why did you flinch? Don't you love me? I-I thought... Do you just trick me?"

His eyes were getting teary again.

"A-Andwae! (N-No!) It's just... I... I still don't know what love feels like! I never were in love... But... You said that you love someone when you're sad or happy

whenever the other one is and that you're sad when you have to leave... and... and you said... That love hurts..."

Donghae's eyes widen.

I knew that he was not mad anymore and listened.

"I couldn't leave you... My chest hurt and this pain... wasn't takable... I don't know what it feels like to love, but I know that your the most important person in my

life and I never ever gonna leave you alone to cry on your own! I wanna try. I really wanna try to love you! So please... Please stop crying 'cause it hurts me

more than you've ever guessed."

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A/N:  So finally an update^^ And? Do you guys think that Hyuk love Hae?

Or can't he tell the difference between love and friendship?

Anyways I'd be happy if you'd leave a comment^^

Saranghae!!! (I Love you!!!) :*