What hurts the most...

| i can almost feel the heavy rain on the roof of my empty house, but that doesn't bother me at all |

"All this time you were pretending that you love me when all you ever wanted to do is be with Chaerin."

 Dara stopped and take a deep breath. She just found out the truth behind Jiyong's love for her. It was all Lies, just a beautiful Lie to get him closer to Chaerin.

| I can take a few tears every now and then, just let them all out |

"I'm sorry Dara, If only I was brave enough to tell her the truth, I shouldn't have used you"

Dara smiled at him, a pained smile, letting her tears roll down her cheeks. She dried her eyes to forget how foolish she had been for the past 3 years. Surely, she could see him talking to Chaerin, getting close to her, but she thought it was just a friendly act. She never thought it was much stronger than he was feeling for her.

| It feels like I can't go on without you by my side, the thought of you gone didn't even registered through me Jiyong |

"Do you still Love me Dara?"

She heave a deep breath and smiled. " I never stopped Jiyong, I never did."

She would still cry and look at herself in the mirror. She would see a different girl, a weak girl who let her man be taken away from her, a girl who was afraid of fighting for the one she loves and just let things scar her deep, so deep that even time can't heal.

| every passing time I pretend to be okay, just to make them believe that I got over you |

"How are you?"

"Better than before, but became worst after seeing you now, Kwon Jiyong. You make me want to puke my intestines out of disgust, but I still smile, coz I know I'm better off without you."

Dara beath and fake a smile, another routine of her everytime she gets a chance to talk to him. It was a lie, Her life right now is nothing but a beautiful lies. her heart is already numb from every heartache he's giving her. She dreamt being a princess once, but she was used by a selfish prince to be with his true love, her being left out, but even though with all that prince had done to her, she would still be that little princess who would always love that one selfish prince.

| what hurts the most is being so close to you, i have so much to say, but still you stood up and left me watchin you walk away |

"Can you stay with me Jiyong?

"Chaerin is waiting, Dar"

Dara heaved a deep sigh and let herself be drowned again with her unending tears. It was this time when she needed him the most. She held her phone on her ears, listening to the phone's busy tone. He was there a moment ago, she was so foolish for letting him go, she let their conversation be left without even trying to stop him, she let him put the phone down without even saying how she wanted to be taken on his arms, how she wanted to feel those warm embrace he gave her when they were still together.

| Never had I imagine my Life without you, Letting you go is the most stupid thing I've done but what can I do? I want you to be happy even if it means by setting you free |

"why did you let him go?"

"It was because I don't want him to be Dead at heart. I want to make him happy and that is being with Chaerin. I may be in pain right now but it was all worth it, for seeing those smile in his lips gives me strength to continue my life."

Dara stood up from the bench near Jiyong's house and start walking her way back to her empty house. As crazy as it may sound, she went this far just to check if Chaerin is making him feel great. Chaerin is a great person after all, greater than she was maybe. She was a nice, caring and loving person with a big heart and smile on her face. She never thought she would be the one taking Jiyong away from her. 'Chaerin is the luckiest girl to have him and I am not' Dara thought

| It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you, everywhere I go, every person I meet reminds me of how great we were before |

"You're Dara right? Dara Park? The reason of Jiyong's smile. You two looks so cute together, your love story is perfect! But where is he now?"

"Jiyong's at home..... with Chaerin."

Dara place her hands on her chest, grip her heart then closed her eyes. She can still see clearly the faces of people pitying her, looking at her as if she was a poor little girl who was about to run to her mom because someone stole her precious doll. The words they keep saying earlier almost kill her. it pains her coz it was all true, real; real lies indeed! People look at them as perfect couple, they think their Love story is perfect! but they're all wrong! Every words felt like knives pounding her heart over and over. Are they numb? Can't they even see nor feel that she was helpless? She doesn't need their pity. They don't understand her and they just don't care.

| It's so hard to pretend to be happy, to force myself to fake a smile in front of our old friends. cause right now I feel so alone. |

" Why won't you hang with us once in a while, the group misses you so much Dara"

"I'll try my best Bommie-ah, I will try but I can't promise"

Dara closed her eyes and let their presence fill her. Old friends, good old friends she ought to forget for they just reminds her how she felt betrayed by her closest friend. The smile she's giving them is partly bitter and sour. She can't even look at them in their eyes coz they might see how broken she is inside. how air grips her lungs suffocating her from every breath she takes.

| It's so hard to live every day, getting up early in the morning, getting dressed and living with nothing but regret |

"I regret it, I regret it all. I regret the day I met you, the time I got close to you, the minute I fell in love with you, the point that I let you go and the most, I regret the moment I saw you turning your back to me. I regret all those time I got stupid and scared."

Dara lie down on her bed hugging herself, face buried on her pink pillow drenched with her own tears. She can still smell the scent of his perfume, the manly scent of Jiyong on her bed. She can still hear that hearty laughter they share every night in her house, she can still fill his warmth on her bed. She just want to lie down there and remember how perfect couple they were.

| I want you back in my arms. I want to feel your warmth, to share those kisses with you again, I want to see those eyes staring back at me lovingly. but I guess the courage I had ran a little too late, now I just had to watch you do those things with someone else |

"What are you doing here Dara?"

"Chaerin-ah, I love him and I want him back" Dara held the door of Jiyong's house stopping Chaerin

"Don't you know what happened? Then let me remind you once again. He left you for me Dara. He chose to be with me rather than to be with you." Chaerin said looking straight into her once closest friend

"He wouldn't be with you if I didn't let him go."

Chaerin scoffed as if mocking her "It was not my fault now Dara. You just said it, you let him go, It's your stupidity for giving him up."

"I'm not stupid." She defended but failed to, for she knows it herself that Chaerin is right! If she didn't let him go Jiyong would probably be still in her arms

"Then what are you?" looking intently into her eyes

"I'm just a girl who loves him so much, so much that I let him go. So much that I'm willing to sacrifice my own happiness for I know that he'll be happy with you." her eyes not leaving her once best friend's eyes that pities her. she just let her tears flow not minding if she looks so helpless in front of her

"why taking him now?"

she stopped and look at her again, 'why taking him now?' she thought, because He was mine! because I'm so stupid and idiot pretending to be a saint!' she wanted to tell those but she can't for she knows that's not the real reason why she wants to take him back.

"Because-- I  want to be .... happy. I also just ... want to be ... happy Chaerin-ah"

| what hurts the most is being so close to you, wanting to tell you how much I miss you, wanting to feel you. what hurts the most is that having you near yet I can't do nor say what I truly want to coz I know when I start to talk things out, you won't be there anymore but will be walking your way back to where you truly belong. |

"Good day Dara. It's nice seeing you here"

Dara stopped across his house and held her tears back. She took a deep breath and fake a smile

"Jiyong-ah Let's go, we need to get going now"

Dara just stood there and follow him on her gaze, she gripped her heart and closed her eyes

"Thanks for walking in to my life Kwon Jiyong"

Dara sat down on the bench across Jiyong's house and watch him walk away, hand in hand with a smile on his lips

 " All I ever wanted is For You to be Happy, and I hope I made the right choice... Take Care "

Oh My Daragon heart. TwT I just heard a crack a while ago while writing this. =_____=

Sorry for making CL such a bad bad BAAAAAD girl here. I LOVE HER GUYS SO DON'T BASH ME FOR MAKING CL A BAD GIRL. :3

Sorry for those Applers who are heartbroken right now me too is heartbroken. Hul~ T____T

I hope I meet your expectations with these >.<

I'm also so sorry for posting this sooooo late it's supposed to be yesterday evening but I got sleepy and all, I didn't finish typing these.

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