I always know this love is wrong.

Just this lifetime, I loved you with all my heart….

I only hope the next lifetimes, I won’t meet you again, never again…

I’m Kang Daesung. When papa and mama named me this name, they hoped I would grow up strongly and bring proud for my family. So I tried and tried. I only knew I must study and study harder. So, when I was a student, I became a bookworm, and an unsocial person. As usual, I became everyone’s target for bullying. Of course, I have a normal face, maybe someone called me ugly. I got a scholarship to go this school, a royal school for rich people, so I knew that I’m a poor one too. In short, my student time wasn’t easy at all. I always was beaten and be treated like a creepy person. I couldn’t tell anyone about it, I couldn’t tell my family, I had no friend, so I only could smile, I smiled when I was hurt, I smiled when I was insulted, I smiled when I became everyone’s clown. I had no choice, I had no way out, I only hoped that time would go away soon, I only could wish in silent….Till the day he came…

He is Choi Seunghyun, nickname is TOP. He was one of three princes in this school. He and Kwon Ji Yong, Dong Young Bae, had the power to make everyone had to listen to them. They got everything, rich family, mighty power and beauty. Yes, he is beautiful. I didn’t know why a man could be called beauty, but TOP, he is…yes, when I saw him, I knew that my soul was taken. He was everything that I couldn’t become. I admired him so much, too much so little by little it became love. Hopeless love. A clown felt in love with a prince, it was nothing good. I only saw him from far and far away, I only hide at a place where nobody noticed me, so I could see his smile, I only was like this, I thought I would always be like this, buried this love deep and deep inside my heart, but magic became real…

One day, I was locked in the dark room by other rich kids again. I was scared darkness so much. So I only closed my eyes, whispered to myself over and over again, it will be alright, Daesung, it will be alright !!! I was shaking so much, I begged somebody would save me, anybody !! Please help me !! I screamed in my mind, my tears silently felt down… Suddenly, the door opened, and like a fairy tale, that was a prince who rescued me. He came near me with a gentle smile, patted my head lightly and carried me out the door. I only looked at him with wide eyes, couldn’t believe what I saw, my tears still felt, but not because of fear, but because of happiness… If this was my dre