Jiyong's POV

       I'm staring at dara waiting for her to say something, after our breakdown I led dara to my car to have some privacy and to actually kind of trap her so she can't run away we needed this, I needed this my thoughts was hauled when I heard her voice

" I hated you " the first sentence she speaks " I hated you for leaving me, I hated you for not being there , I hated how you act like nothing happened and have the audacity to make a conversation like everything's the same, I hated how you left me for her but most of all I hated how you broke your promise " I was about to speak but I think she should tell me everything first before I try to explain

" I hated everyone you, bom, mom, dad and cheondong " my heart aches I hated how she's hurting right now and I'm part of the reason why" All of you, You all left me."

She stares at me with her cloudy eyes " I felt like dying, I kept asking myself why me? why is this happening to me? I question myself everyday searching for a non existent answer . Did I do anything wrong is this my punishment, did I ever take advantage of anyone, have I been cruel my past life? this stupid questions keeps me awake at night " I looked at her and felt her pain

"  At first I always say to myself that everything will be okay and to keep a positive mindset coz I'll be just torturing myself to keep wanting the past back. I was trying I swear I was.. but then that day happened.. that painful day" Tears was starting to fall from dara's eyes " H-he left me... I couldnt help him I was too absorb in my own world with my pathetic problems that I didn;t even bother asking him if he was okay.. So he left me.. "

I grab dara's hand " It wasnt your fault none of it was your fault... please don't blame yourself" I begged to my suprise she pulls her hands back and stare at me.

" That day I was so torn... I really needed you so I gather all my strenght and called you. " called me? I ask myself " but you... you were busy, you didnt have time for me coz you were happy and I hated you for that "

"but dara I didn-" she cuts me off

" Flashbacks of our past came rushing to me all the promises all the smiles all my happiness it's all sliping away from me... as so my life" I tensed and tears stung my eyes I let her finish before asking why..

" I just wanted to take a rest I just needed to take a break from all the that's going on my life I just needed to go away.. forever I guess " tears was falling down from my eyes as I bow my head. Pathetic that's all I felt

" but just my luck Vic went to check on me and rush me to the hospital just in time.. " I heard her sigh, was she dissapointed that vic found her? another pain struck me as images of her dying flash to my head

" After that I just... gave up. If dying was too much of a pleasure for me then I'll live this ill-fated life of mine till my last moment. So I did... and now we're here.. " She looks at me with red eyes and a weak smile

I didnt know what to say, I didnt know how to start a sentence without my voice cracking I was ashamed to say the least.  I think me apologizing will make things more painful for her coz how many times have she heard the word sorry. So I didnt say anything I just held her hand as I drove her home I heard her faint snore, I took a glimpse of her face and as I thought she was sleeping. It was red light so I took this oppurtunity to stare at her her cheeks was red and so as her nose from crying. Without think my hands move to her cheeks as I caress them, tears was starting to form in my eyes again. "Im sorry.. " I whisper, Its the only word I can muster and the only word I can say to her. 

We arrived at her apartment building , I just knew she moved from bom. I stare at her more didn't want to wake her I just want to treasure this time. I just want time to stop with me holding her hand and hearing her soft breathes but my dreams was shuttered when her phone rings. I heard her move as I hurry and get her phone I answer and quickly looked at her I smiled as I see her still in her slumber she's still the same heavy sleeper my thoughts was disturbed when I heard a voice form the phone

" hello ? " A man's voice?

" Hello who's this " I ask annoyed 

" Who's this? Where is dara? " 

" I ask you first who are you and why are you calling her? "

" My number is save in her phone you should probably look at that, so where's dara ? " I  quickly looked at the screen saw a name chanyeol 

“ she’s with me. Are you her classmate? “ I ask 

“ No. now can you put her in?  I need to ask her something” 

“She can't answer now so bye. “ I ended the call annoyed, who was that guy and what is he going to ask Dara. I thought Dara didn't have that many friend so who was he to Dara? My thoughts was once disrupted again when I sensed Dara waking up I quickly put her phone in her bag without thinking.

“Ohh.. We're here” Dara said fixing herself 

" Yeah,,,, we're here " I sounded dissapointed, I really didn't want our time to end just yet. Dara walked out the door and so did I " So... see you tomorrow? " I ask cautiously

" I guess... " I was relieved, I'm so happy that we can actually start again. I know this is what we needed, we just needed to talk... well not quite but we can start from this. 

" You should go now.. Its getting cold " I said with an assuring smile. I want to hug her and tell her thak you for opening up to me and giving me another chance but I'm afraid doing so will just complicate things more.

" Ok.. " I stared at her then just before she enter her building she looks back at me and walk toward me

" I...I just want to say thank you for listening, I needed that. I guess I needed you to listen for me to... move on " and that does it without thinking I run to her and pull her to my arms 

" No,, Thank you for letting me listen, thank you for giving me this chance " I hugged her tight and to my suprise she hugs me back I froze but then relax as I felt her familiar warmth 

Afte we bid goodbye once more, I waited for her to get to the elevator and I return to my car my jaw is hurting from my non stop smiling I just cant believe we can actually go back from where we were just like the past us. I'm happy and I'm content.

Wow its been a year since I last update, I almost forgot about this FF, blame it on my Uni, Thai University have so many stupid activities and projects probably all Uni anyway but my Uni just takes it to a whole another lever. TT . Is there still people reading this ?? but I'm back so as this FF.