My Side Your Side
My Side Your Side
Dara
I was 12 and the new girl in town
when I met him.
“Hi! I am Jiyong. What’s your name?”
“Sandara” I said,
mesmerized by the raven-haired boy.
“That’s an odd name for a girl” he said
“Maybe I am an odd girl”
Dark brown eyes stared into mine.
I wondered what he saw?
“You’re not” he said softly.
I blushed.
“Want to be my friend?” he asked.
“Sure” I gladly accepted.
“From now on I’ll call you Dara”
So I was.
So we became friends.
Used to Be
I would sit on a swing
and you would push me
When you have an apple
you’d cut it in half
and give the bigger part to me
I would tell you my problems
and tell me not to worry
We used to be friends
You and I
But time passed by (4 years)
and you outgrew me
G Dragon
I am the “It Boy”
Mr. Popular
I hang with the popular crew
I date the most sought out girls
I party like there’s no tomorrow
But I wasn’t always like this
I used to be Jiyong
Simple and ordinary
I got bored and decided to change
I dyed my hair blonde
That was 2 years ago
Sick and Tired
I never knew being popular
could be suffocating
Maintaining my image
Means I have to watch out
for my every move
Being at the top is lonely
When everyone else befriends you
For whom they think you are
Not for whom you are
Come to think of it
I’m not sure who I am anymore
But I don’t know who else to be
I am sick and tired of this crap
But it’s all I have
Rift
I don’t know when this chasm
appeared between us
A huge rift has opened
that I could not cross
You’re down with the cool kids now
G Dragon, they would call you
While I am still me, Sandara
The girl with the odd name
Dara, once your friend
Now just a nobody
And like a nobody
You no longer saw me
Social convention states that
The likes of you and I don’t mix
Must be why the rift has turned
Into this Grand Canyon of distance
With me on my side
And you on the other
From Afar
I can’t recall when was it
that we stopped talking?
Maybe it was when I started to change
Without meaning to,
I pushed you away
Time and neglect
has put this distance between us
And social rules forbid me to cross it
I can’t go back to the way things were,
Knowing I left you behind
So I contented myself watching you from afar
And sending you my smile
when you feel lonely
Accident
I was used to being on the outskirts
of everyone’s attention
until I accidentally bumped into him
and spilled strawberry slush
on his crisp white shirt
The shirt was suddenly stained red
like the blooming embarrassment
on my cheeks
“Mianhe” I said.
My first word to you after 2 years
Your friends got angry and called me names
I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me
“Enough” you said and left
I was surprised when you took my hand
and pulled me with you
Sorry
Away from the crowd,
I studied her closely
She seemed the same
yet prettier than I remember
“Mianhe” she apologized again
“It’s alright, Dara”
I used the name I gave her after a long time
Brown eyes stared into mine,
filled with question and surprise
“I thought you’ve forgotten about me”
“We may have stopped talking,
but I have never forgotten you.
I am sorry for being a rotten friend.”
“It’s alright Ji. You should go back to them.
I don’t want you to suffer because of me.”
She used my old name.
“No, this is where I should be”
Repercussions
My so-called friends were mad
that I chose Dara over them
and the girls that used to follow me
ditched me upon learning about this
I have stopped being invited to parties
I dyed my hair black
Alone
You were used to a crowd
surrounding you,
admiring you
You were always on top
I’m amongst the crowd
surrounding you,
admiring you
but you didn’t notice
It’s alright
It doesn’t hurt
I’m used to being alone
The crowd parted
and you’re left in the middle,
standing
Tell me,
Does it hurt to be alone?
Back to You
Now that I am not Mr. Popular
I could hang with Dara again
I hope I was not too late
I hope she’d still accept me
I wanted to make up for the lost years
I wanted for things to go back
to the way they were
Truth is, I’ve missed her
Secret
He’s back.
My friend Jiyong is back
A bridge has formed
between the rift between us
Problem is, I am in love with him
A secret I have kept to myself
Switch
She grew in front of me
But only now do I see her truly
Fair skin that glows
Long flowing hair
Smooth cheeks that easily blush
Lips tainted with strawberries
Eyes that speak of innocence
A smile as bright as the sun
My heart races when I look at her
like a switch has been
Love is set into motion
The Proposal
I love her
I know I do
And I want her to love me too
But what do I do to make her mine
How do I propose to a friend of mine?
The Word Unspoken
Yesterday you smiled at me
I smiled back
Today
I saw you again smiling
And I smiled back
Tomorrow’s just another day
You’d smile again
And I’d smile back
Waiting to hear
The word unspoken
Apple
I gave you an apple
“Just like the old times?” you asked.
“No, It’s all yours.”
You were puzzled
“Have you ever marvelled how a human heart
is almost shaped like an apple?
Like this apple, I’m giving my heart to you”
Butterflies
There were butterflies in my stomach
and butterflies in my heart
This fluttery feeling that wouldn’t stop
He pulled me close as he leaned in
I closed my eyes and waited for him
I felt the butterfly in his kisses over and over again.
“I love you Dara”
“I love you too Ji”
There’s no my side or your side
Only the two of us with love in between
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