Title: July 8th (Shicigatsu Youka)
Pairing: Aoi x Reita
Genre: Angst?
Warnings: May crush your MELT feels.
Summary: Goodbye to you, even now I wish you happiness. My love, whom I won't get to see anymore, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the song. Lyrics translation by heresiarchy.

July 8th
 

    It has been two years, hasn’t it? We’re following our own different paths now. I wonder how are you doing. I hope you’re doing well.

    Do you remember the time when we finally needed to part? I still remember each details from it. No matter what happens, it won’t leave my mind. You won’t leave my mind.

    Tears couldn’t stop flowing from your eyes. You, who always try to hold back your tears to look strong, were crying uncontrollably. It was rare to see you like that. I’ve known you for more than ten years, and maybe that was the first time I saw you like that. You were holding your feelings back too much, you know? Even after crying out uncontrollably, it still feels like you were holding back something. When I saw you cry like that, I can’t help but to cry too. The others were also crying. Maybe not as hard as you did, but they still did. I know we meant a lot to you, you also meant a lot to us, you meant a lot to me, and even until now, you still do.

    After so much crying, we still need to go our own different paths. I remember your smile, yeah, you were crying, but when we were finally gonna bid our goodbyes, you smiled. It wasn’t a forced smile, it’s not exactly the kind of smile you would show whenever you’re having fun, that smile was different. When I saw that smile, my lips unconsciously curved to a smile as well. When I asked you why you were smiling, you just said, “Kai said it himself; never regret something that once made you smile. The band has made me smile, the fans, the staffs, everyone has made me smile. I shouldn’t have cried in the first place. I should respect your decision in quitting the band. If you’re gonna quit, the GazettE isn’t ‘the GazettE’ anymore without you, Aoi,” you calmed down a bit, tears were still flowing out from your eyes though, but you were smiling. Yeah, the band was disbanding because I decided to quit. I was exhausted of all the works that couldn’t stop piling up, of being unable to say whatever I want in public, of being unable to have my own private life. I do love you guys and the fans, but it still didn’t help the fact that I had enough.

    Ah, maybe it would be nice if I can return back to that time and decided that I won’t quit so we can still be together. But wouldn’t it be uncool? I was ‘Aoi’. Aoi wouldn’t do something as uncool as taking back his words. I’m not Aoi anymore now though. I’m just ‘Shiroyama Yuu’. Even though I’m Yuu now, I still can’t help it. I still love you, Rei. Thoughts of you won’t stop lingering in my mind. I cried every night until I was miserable. It was painful. Maybe a little bit too painful. I tried to forget you, but why can’t I? Why can’t you just leave my mind? I guess I’m lonely...

    ‘How are you doing?’ This one question keeps on echoing in my head, but no matter what, I know I won’t get an answer. I wonder if you’ve seized your precious dreams, I wonder if you’ve seized our precious dreams. Those dreams we used to share together, do you still remember them? It’s probably pointless to think of all of these, huh? But please, grant my one and only wish, don’t erase me from your heart.

    Do you remember how the five of us started out as a band together? The concert hall was almost empty whenever we held a live. Nobody really cared about us.

    Do you remember how surprised we were when the fans asked for an encore for the very first time? The crowds cheered for more of our music, for more of us.

    Do you remember how much we hoped to held a concert at the budoukan? We didn’t just hope and wish, we worked our asses off.

    Do you remember how touched we were to be able to held a concert at the budoukan for the first time? Before, there were a lot of people that thought it was impossible for the GazettE to make it to the budoukan, but hey, we proved them wrong. We were able to perform on the stage where our senpai-s used to perform.

    Do you remember how the fans cried and sang along during Wakaremich? How they sang, we could feel their sincerity.

    Wakaremichi, the first song our band has made, and the last song our band has played together.

    Wakaremichi, the beginning of our band, and the end of our band.

    Do you remember those precious days, overflowing in tears and smiles? While we cried together, we said we’d meet again, that we wouldn’t forget. Even though I’m such a crybaby, would you walk with me, by my side again? I’ll wait, however many days, months, years, and even centuries until that day comes. If I died before that day comes, are there any possibilities to find you again in the next life?

    Please, let me hear your voice. I’m here. I’m not going anywhere. I’ll always, always be here. I want to hear your voice so badly. Just a simple “Hello, how are you?” conversation is okay, as long as I can hear your voice. I tried calling you but as I expected, you won’t pick up. Are you... avoiding me? But why would you do that? I don’t even understand why.

    Then one day, I found you with such a bright and happy smile, your arms wrapped around the person you love. She’s beautiful; you two suit each other very well. That’s good to know. And though I should’ve been sad, I’m happy to see you smile like that, to see you’ve finally found the person you truly love. Seeing that you’re well is more than enough.

    I tried to act tough, I needed to. If I greet you, I’m just going to cry. I just tried waving to you to say “thanks” and “be well”. It seems like you noticed me. You looked surprised and you called out my name. If I look at you any longer, I won’t be able to hold back these tears anymore so I just ran off.

    Goodbye to you. Even now I wish you happiness. My love, whom I won’t get to see anymore, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.

    Goodbye, be well. Until the day we meet again...

July 8th (Thursday),
a clear day.

A/N: I made this based on Shicigatsu Youka's lyrics, but you guys know that Shicigatsu Youka is the sequel to Wakaremichi, right? So that's why there was mentions of Wakaremichi here. *nods nods* The main image is 4.8 MB so it will take some time to load if your internet connection is slow. *shot* How to get free ice cream: Comment down what you think!