It was Christmas’ Eve and it was raining very hard. You didn’t mind it much, you always loved rain, but in that moment you were so mad you couldn’t allow yourself enjoy the beautiful rain and the celebrations.

How could he? Was repeating in your mind.

You spent the last 2 hours in the library trying to finish the research that was due after the holiday. You were so into finishing the research that you didn’t notice your phone ringing till your classmate asked you to answer your phone.

It was Woohyun. He called you to check if you were coming for dinner since the boys weren’t deciding on spending Christmas’s Eve with their families. You said yes immediately and packed your stuff and left.

As you were walking down the streets, Christmas carols were being played and sung all around the city. You stopped by a group of singers and watched them sing happily.

You were into the mood, people started gathering around the singers and clapping for them. You turned your head and looked around you and then your eyes saw something. In one of the electronics shop’s window you saw so many Televisions showing the commercial but with different qualities. There was no mistaking who that was.

It was he. First you couldn’t believe your eyes since he didn’t tell you he filmed a commercial. Either ways you stood there watching the commercial with pride, he was so cute! And then it happened.

You rubbed your eyes trying to make sure you saw what just happened, but the commercial just finished and started again from the beginning. You stood close to the shop’s window this time and watched the commercial once again. And then it happened again.

Hold on a second…what did he just do? You spent the next hour watching the same commercial over and over again trying to prove your eyes as liars.

Your phone started ringing and startled you.

It was Sunggyu this time asking you where you were. You woke up from your faze and told him you’re on your way.

Here you were now standing by their dorm’s entrance. You were mad, so mad and you didn’t know why.

He was a celebrity; he was supposed to do such things. But why did it bother you so much?

You composed yourself and went into the dorm.

“aaaaah! She’s here!!! We wish you a merry Christmas, we wish you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!” Sunggyu, Woohyun and Dongwoo sang to you welcoming you in.

You laughed at their childishness and sang with them.

“there you are! We were waiting for too long! We thought someone kidnapped you but then Sungyeol said no one in his right mind would kidnap you” Hoya said as he came and hugged you with the other boys.

Just the sight of him made you want to slap him. You usually have smart retorts, but your mind wasn’t functioning at that moment.

You all sat at the dinning table eating. The boys were very hyper talking about what they were expecting for Christmas and teasing each other with embarrassing stories.

They didn’t seem to notice your silence and that relieved you. You really didn’t want to explain to anyone of them, at least not in front of him.

After dinner the guys wanted to watch a Christmas movie, you sat on the couch next to Sungjong and Hoya.

The movie started and everyone was cuddled on the couches. It was a dream for you to sit with these boys in this way but you couldn’t help but think again about what you saw earlier.

What bothered you more is that he didn’t show any sign of caring. Either he didn’t notice your silence, or he knew but decided to let you open the topic first.

His hand wrapped around yours under the blanket and you felt the warmth of his touch. Hoya, your dream boy holding your hand while you two were cuddling on Christmas’s Eve.

Your brain was doing crazy happy dances but you slapped it mentally as you reminded yourself you were mad at Hoya and you shouldn’t think of him in that way.

You suddenly got up and mumbled something about getting coffee from the café.

Hoya looked at you as you were leaving the room, Myungsoo nudged him to follow you, but he really didn’t know if that was a wise move.

You just finished buttoning your coat and were out of the door. The cold breeze hit your cheeks as you walked faster. You crossed the street and went to the near park close to where they lived.

You always loved coming here, it was a small park, but a serene one.

You walked till you reached your favorite bench; you sat and looked at your hands.

What was wrong with you? Why were you so mad at him for something he didn’t have the power to stop?

“you lied” a voice said. “you didn’t go for coffee.”

You looked up and saw looking down at you. You just shook your head and looked down again.

He sat next to you and held your hand. “do you want to tell me what’s wrong?”

“you’re saying you don’t know?”

“I have my suspicions, but I’d like to hear your point.”

“aish. It’s embarrassing.”

“oh really? Well we’re sitting under the rain while we could be sitting inside the house feeling warm and cozy” he said chuckling and tightening his grip on you “you remember what you said the first time I told you I loved you? You said let’s live with no secrets. I knew my heart made the right choice for the first time then. It loved the right person. So now, tell me.” He put his free arm around your shoulder while the other hand was still holding yours.

“I don’t like it when you kiss other girls” you blurted out quickly. He was waiting for you to say more, so you continued “I know you’re an idol and I’m supposed to be sharing you with a few ten thousand fans, that part I understand. But when you go and kiss a cute girl on the cheek while you and I..” you faded off. You didn’t want to continue, you were so shy to say anything more.

“while you and I didn’t have our first kiss yet?” He finished the sentence for you.

You could feel him looking at you but suddenly you remembered it was raining and you didn’t want him to get sick because of you.

“let’s go inside, you’ll get sick. The rain is getting heavier.” You said as you stood up.

He was still holding your hand stopping you from leaving him.

“its ok, you’re here. I won’t get sick. Now finish what you were saying. You’re jealous that I kissed her before I kissed you?” he was waiting for your response.

You knew you had to discuss this sooner or later.

“it’s not only because of that. Even if we had our first kiss, I still don’t want you to kiss other girls. I know its your career, but I can’t stand it. I’m sorry.” You said looking at him “I want you to succeed and you know this more than anyone else. But at the same time I don’t want….I don’t want you to have second thoughts when you’re being with pretty girls.” There you said it.

“aigominina!! You, aah, why do I even bother! Being around pretty girls? What’s that when I have the most beautiful woman in the world by my side?” he said as he got up and back hugged you. “I thought you were jealous for me and that made me feel happy, but now I can see you’re being insecure. How many times do I have to tell that my heart never wavered for such girls?”

You were starting to understand what he meant but that still didn’t mean he didn’t kiss that girl before he kissed you.

“yeah, yeah, whatever. Let’s go now, the guys will start worrying.” You lifted his arms off your shoulders and walked ahead of him.

He was in shock; he didn’t expect you to behave like that. Maybe it was a serious matter after all for you.

“hey _____________-ah!” you turned around and then his body slammed into you and…and his lips were on yours.

He held your body very close to his as he moved his lips against yours. You were startled; you didn’t fathom what was going on.

When he felt you weren’t responding, he pulled back a little bit to look at your face. His hair was dripping with water droplets and his nose was red. His lips were parted a little but the look in his eyes was what made you understand him finally.

“you idiot, I love you. Only you. No one else means the same way you mean to me” he leaned closer making you walk backwards till your back hit a tree.

“I love you” he whispered before he took your lips in his, kissing you.

His lips were soft and warm; it was a thrilling sensation considering the cold weather. You couldn’t help but kiss him back. He opened your lips as he deepened the kiss further and you could have sworn then you were in heaven.

His body leaned closer closing any gaps between your bodies. His hands traveled from your waist to your arms till they reached your head. He held your head closer to him as he kissed the water droplets falling on your lips.

You thought it wasn’t possible, but the kiss was getting deeper and more passionate. You lifted your hands and put them on his cheeks trying to take control. You kissed him and his bottom lip that you always saw him biting.

God, how much you’ve always wanted to do that. He gasped a little as your cold hands his face and hair. You kissed away any moans escaping from his lips; you didn’t want to let anything get between you and him in that moment.

His lips were finally on yours, the lips you always fantasized about. The lips he always and bit subconsciously. The lips that drove you crazy with wanting and passion.

You leaned your head back as you came for air, he didn’t waste any seconds, he brought his lips back to yours and kissed you again this time letting his tongue into your mouth. You never experienced such a thing in your life. How come you were missing this all of your life? But honestly, it was worth waiting. It was worth saving your first kiss because now you had it with him.

You pulled back from him again reluctantly and looked at him. He was breathing very fast; his lips were swollen and moist with rain drops. You really wanted to taste the water on his lips but you stopped yourself from such thoughts, you two had to go back before he seriously got sick.

 You smiled at him and pulled away from his embrace. “we have to go back” you said as you fixed your raincoat and wiped your face. “you’re so going to be sick tomorrow morning. What a Christmas you’ll be spending” you told him teasingly.

He was standing there looking at you with amusement.

“you’re right. Aish you never fail to amuse me” he said as he put his arm around your shoulder as you two walked back to the dorm.

You were still relieving his kisses, the way his lips tasted and felt. You wanted to do that again. You felt a blush creeping into your face. You looked at him from underneath your lashes trying to see his reaction after what happened.

You couldn’t believe it! He was blushing too! His head turned and your eyes met. You saw the wanting and desire in his eyes but what made you want him then was the look of love he gave you.

“now two things had been crossed from my to-do list” he said

“and what are they?”

“kissing you, and kissing you under the rain” he mumbled.

You looked down shy because of his truthful words.

You both were entering the dorm again when Sunggyu’s voice startled you.

“you two have so much to explain.” He said gravely.

Oops. You’ll have to deal with six other boys now.