All this while, I thought it was just a normal feeling but I was wrong, so wrong. As the days pass by, I realized that the feeling is not normal at all. Why- Why must it be you that makes me feel this way? This doesn't feel right, please tell me that I am just confused with my feelings. Please, I don't want to hurt you by saying that I love you. I don't have the guts to tell you so and I couldn't bear to ruin our friendship that we built years ago. It's hard- It's hard for me to compose myself whenever you are around. I- I can't help it but to look at you, wondering; how long has it been since I started loving you, till now. I am a coward, yes I am because I'm afraid- afraid of the reality that you don't love me back, and it is the truth. It hurts to know that you won't love me back when I already know the hurtful truth, years ago. But hey, I won't, and never stop loving you till the day I die. Even if- even if you don't love me back, I fully understand. Your heart belongs to someone else but my heart, will always belong to you. All I want is for you to be happy and with that, I will survive. If I ever, hurt you one day, I will never forgive myself and the only one reason I have for everything is;

because I love you, Kim Jongin.

- Kim Joonmyun -