That day, I made a discovery;

A way to erase your memory,

For an eternity

 

A way to finally stop your heart from suffering;

Suicide

 

Some would think it’s stupid, horrible, selfish

 

But am I not already stupid enough, for letting the love of my life slip away from me?

Am I not horrible enough already, since my own family abandoned me?

How can I be selfish to anyone, if no one in this world even cares about me?

 

~

 

The pain…

It’s going to end soon…

Finally

 

 

~

 

Do Kyungsoo…

We’ll meet again in heaven,

Hopefully

 

~

 

What a beautiful knife…

Would it be disgusted if I stained it with my blood?

Probably

 

~

 

Drop by drop.

It slowly fell to the ground.

 

Since when was my blood so pretty?

So red, so…perfect

 

Perfection…

Those that really exists?

Maybe

 

Why am I crying?

I’m supposed to be an emotionless wreck

 

Why do I feel so light?

Am I flying?

I’ve always wanted to fly

 

Why are they so many questions in my mind?

I won’t even be able to answer them all

 

As my eyes closed, one last question travelled my mind;

Did I make the right decision?

 

~

 

That day, I died

That day, Kim Jongin died

But for the rest of the world, nobody did