[Jongup's POV]

People think I'm dumb because I smile all of the time and because I don't say much.

I have my reasons for acting the way I do.

 

I don't say anything because I don't want to damage my voice.

I don't say anything because I'm sleepy.

I don't say anything because I'm concentrating.

I don't say anything because I don't have anything to say.

I don't say anything because I'm not interested.

I don't say anything so I don't say anything stupid by mistake.

I don't say anything because I might unintentionally hurt someone, just like I hurt him.

 

I smile because of little things like getting up and finding my favorite snack.

I smile because I got my dancing to be perfect.

I smile because I get to dance with my bandmates.

I smile because I’m listening to Chris Brown.

I smile because I got a good grade on my test.

I smile because I got to see a movie.

I smile because it gives people something to look forward too.

I smile because it's my disguise, it conceals what I really feel.

 

My smile makes them think that I’m happy.

My silence makes sure that his name won't accidentally slip out.

My smile makes them think that I won’t hurt myself again.

My silence convinces them that I've become myself again.

My smile convinces them that I don’t need to go back to the hospital.

My smile and silence masks the pain that I’m hiding inside.

 

 

[B.A.P's POV]

Jongup doesn't really speak, even at the dorm.

The thing that you saw on Tadah, it's B.A.P? Yeah, what Daehyun thought is what we all think.

Jongup never tells us how he feels, he always has that puppy-like smile on his face.

It's kind of scary, not once has he stopped smiling.

Maybe he really is dumb? We don't really know, and we don't really care.

As long as he's smiling, as long as our Jonguppie is happy.

 

 

 

He is happy, right?