It was like the first day of tomorrow, if that was even possible, if that even made sense. But to Se Hun, protecting Lu Han that day was the most important thing he could do in his life. Lu Han had almost been hit by a car; his attempt to make everyone around him miserable had failed miserably. “What the are you doing?!” Se Hun had yelled at him with all his might, and when the other didn’t answer him, he had taken Lu Han home. Minutes later he had found the boy falling asleep on his lap faster than the flick of a light. Se Hun Lu Han’s hair, it was soft. The two of them knew each other from before; it wasn’t like they were all strangers, but as hell it felt like it. They hadn’t seen each other for probably ten years. They had aged, they had changed and meeting Lu Han, trying to do what he was about to do, wasn’t exactly the best reunion he could think of.  The fact that Se Hun had had a crush on Lu Han ever since they were small didn’t exactly make the matter any better, the latter was now lying on his lap, his eyes closed, his nose still slightly red from the cold outside, a blanket spread across him, his soft brown hair tousled and damp by the rain, but nothing less than y where he lay.

Se Hun found the boy shifting in his sleep, well perhaps he wasn’t exactly a boy, considering Lu Han was about five years older than him. He let out a small laugh, perhaps he was the boy in this setting. Lu Han stirred, slowly opening his eyes to look at Se Hun. “You’re still here…” he murmured almost so quietly that Se Hun barely could hear what was coming out of the latter’s mouth. He nodded, a slight smile played on his lips. “Slept well?” Se Hun looked down at the still not moving, older male. The older nodded and sat up, “Yeah, sorry for falling asleep on your lap. You could’ve moved me,” Se Hun wondered why the man was so quiet; whispering like the whole world was listening. “No, I liked it; you’re cute when you sleep like that…” Lu Han could feel a blush creeping across his face, “What? It’s true!” Se Hun laughed, not letting any corner of the room escape the sweet melody of his voice.

Days passed, Se Hun had let Lu Han stay with him at his apartment, but the other man wouldn’t open up at all. Frankly he was quite depressing to be around. Mustering his courage Se Hun decided to confront the man, he demanded to know what was wrong! “Lu Han Hyung,” Se Hun took a deep breath. “Hyung, why won’t you tell me what’s wrong with you?” the older just smiled weakly, “Nothing is wrong with me Se Hun-ah, why would you think that?” The younger, clenched his fists together. Lu Han always avoided the matter, not wanting to talk about it, telling him that nothing was wrong. But still, still he looked like the world had collapsed around him, and that there was nothing left living for. “Hyung, don’t try to avoid my question!” he yelled, “You’re always avoiding me!” Lu Han looked up at the younger male, the person who never raised his voice and now shouted at him. With wide eyes he just stared. Se Hun sighed, “Hyung, you tried to kill yourself…” he muttered, biting his lip, trying to hold back the tears. “Se Hun…” “And furthermore, you barely talk to me anymore. It’s like, no you’re like a living dead!” Lu Han was shocked. Was this what it seemed like for Se Hun? Did he really look like that? It was probably true… But what could he do, there really was nothing left living for. And Se Hun had taken away his chance of ending his own life. “Se Hun, what can I do?” Lu Han looked down at his own feet, “What can I do!? Yes I tried killing myself. Do you want to know why? I got kicked out of my house because I trusted my parents with the fact that I was gay, which was the biggest mistake I have ever made. I broke up with my boyfriend. I left China, I returned to Korea, only to get ! How the do you think I feel! There’s nothing left living for Se Hun! Why couldn’t you just have let me die that day?! …Why?!” Se Hun felt overwhelmed, kicked out, gay, broke up, and … nothing left to live for? “Then what about me?” the younger whispered, “What about me, hyung?” Lu Han sighed, “What do you mean Se Hun, I don’t understand…” Se Hun took a hold of Lu Han and pulled him in for a hug, “What, you don’t understand?” Se Hun smiled, “You don’t understand that I’m in love with you? That I have been for several years already... That you’ve never returned my feelings or that I have always been in an unrequited love with you?” Se Hun let a tear slip from the corner of his eye, “Which is it that you don’t understand Lu Han, tell me?” Lu Han drew a shaky breath, “You love me?” he bit his lip. Se Hun nodded, “Don’t tell me you haven’t noticed these past couple of weeks?” The older shook his head vibrantly, making Se Hun look at him. “Really…?” Lu Han asked again, “What you don’t believe me?” Se Hun chuckled, tightening his hold around the older male. “Shall I prove it to you?” he grinned, igniting a spark in Lu Han’s eyes that wouldn’t disappear. “How?” the older finally returned the hug by putting his arms around Se Hun, “Like this.” Se Hun dipped his head down and placed his lips softly on Lu Han’s, making the older blush. “Se Hun?” Lu Han hid his face in the younger’s chest as he spoke in his embarrassment, “I’ve always loved you too…” his voice cracked making him bury his face deeper into Se Hun’s shirt. “Wait, say what?” the letter jerked back a little, “But you’ve had like… like a dozen boyfriends, and you’ve never looked at me and… and…” this made Lu Han laugh, “I’ve always looked at you. Haven’t you noticed that all my boyfriends looked somewhat like you?” Se Hun stood there wide eyed, having to slightly support his weight on the kitchen table. “The last boyfriend I broke up with, he looked so much like you that it was scary, and when we broke up, well… It was like saying goodbye to you.” Lu Han bit his lip harshly, holding back the tears that threatened to break out, “And when I got …” he choked, making Se Hun rush back to reality, this time supporting Lu Han instead, “When I got … I felt dirty, so dirty!” He was crying now, tears streaming down his cheeks freely, “Then you saved me when I wanted to die. You were like my angel… But then, then you showed me so much love and you comforted me so much… I’m not good enough for you Se Hun! I’m dirty…!” Looking at the older he just wanted to care for him so much, hold around him and tell him that it was okay. “You’re not dirty. You’ll never be dirty in my eyes. You’ll just me Lu Han, the man that I love, not the man that got ! Do you understand?” Lu Han nodded, “But still…” he continued, “No, no but ’stills’ okay!” He younger settled in for a long deep kiss, letting the both of them feel the longing, the lust and the love they had for each other. “Do you understand me?” Se Hun kissed his nose, moving on to the forehead and jawline, in the end settling in for small butterfly kisses at his collarbone. Lu Han nodded. “Are you up for it?” Lu Han cocked his head to the side, “Up for what?” Se Hun let out a soft laugh, “Me touching you?” Lu Han gasped, “M-making l-love you mean?” Se Hun nodded, “If that’s what you want to call it, then yes.” Se Hun continued on, placing small chaste kisses on the latter’s mouth, “If you want it that it.” Lu Han nodded, “I mean, I’m scared, b-but, I want to! I have always wanted to! Please make me yours Se Hun-ah, please, I need to be yours!” Se Hun grinned,

“As you wish my Princess!” 

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A/N: Oh My LORD! I'm so sorry for the long long long loooong wait! I've had a really bad concience about not finishing this! SOO Since it's my summer break right now, well I decided to finish it for you guys <3 

Thank you for bearing with me, and I'm really, terribly sorry for the really really really LOOONG wait kay? 

Please forgive me! 

Love you guys <3 

Mwah <3 :*