Sehun : It's not that I'm sullen, or moody, I'm not at all the person he believed me to be. I'm determined, I'm practical, I just don't voice myself as others do. But my heart is there, or.....at least....it was. It's not anymore, I can't get it back. Maybe if I had been moody, maybe if I had been sullen, my life would carry on. I'm sorry.

Kai : Was any of this my fault? Was I too eager for the fight? Maybe I was. I underestimated it, I talked it up to be something of glory, of movies. But it isn't like the movies. It's nothing I ever could have prepared for, nothing WE ever could have prepared for. And we all paid for that. But was I the cause of that? I'm sorry.

D.O : This is why I resisted. I never asked for this. I never wanted it to have the results that it did. I always did have a destructive attitude if I was pushed too far, I didn't need a power to demonstrate that. But suddenly I had one, and I wonder, would any of this have happened if that power was not mine? If someone more....capable had it. I couldn't control it. I'm sorry.

Chanyeol : I could have taken the easy road out, remained your friends, your roommates but never told you the truth. You might have rejected me, I may never have seen you again, but perhaps things would have been easier like that. I know you'll never look at me properly again, you've lost what you can't regain. And for that, I don't think I can bring a smile to your face like I used to, like he used to. I'm sorry.

Baekhyun : I always was the quiet one, this was outside of my comfort zone. This entire ordeal. But I warmed to it, for your sakes, for you I became a new person, I almost didn't recognise myself. It was a good change. For a while. But if I could have convinced you against it maybe things wouldn't have changed. I'm sorry.

Suho : I felt responsible for all of you, the one to march before you in battle with my head held high. But I didn't calculate it, I didn't measure it, I didn't predict it. I let you down, I let you all down. I didn't think it would come to this. To sacrifice my own. I'm sorry.

Tao : I felt like I was useless. And maybe in the end I was. What did I do? Did I prevent it? Did I go back and change it? No. But why didn't I? I could have gone back, ALL the way back, right to the beginning and changed our course. We could still be together, you would still be happy, you would still be alive. But you're not. I'm sorry.

Chen : I never knew you. Any of you. And maybe after it all I will never know you for who you really are. Some of you I will definitely never know, but I'm glad I knew you for a short period of time, you changed my life as much as I changed yours. Whether that change was for better or for worse, I don't know, and I never will. I'm sorry.

Lay : I was your saviour, but I didn't save you. I gave myself up for you, but did it have the right result? I will never know. I can only hope. I never knew I could be that person, to be the brave one, to stand at the front, to be the volunteer. But was it all in vain? I'm sorry.

Luhan : Did I complain too much? Did I worry too much? Did I not try hard enough? Is that why I'm not with you now? Could I have kept my mouth shut? Could I have toughened up? Could I have put more effort in? If I did, would the end result be different? Be successful? I wasn't the person that I should have been. I'm sorry.

Xiumin : I felt as though I had the heaviest burden of you all. But we all had our own burden to bear. If I just could have controlled it, mainpulated it correctly, perhaps a miracle could have occured. I was never the saviour, I never would be, but I could have been the game-changer, I could have altered our fates, maybe just a little bit. Why didn't I take that chance? I'm sorry.

Kris : I never seemed to show my emotions around you all. Perhaps if I had broken the ice, so to speak, I might have been more of a team player. I looked out for some of you, but perhaps my selectiveness led to our downfall, to my own vulnerability, to my own insecurity. I can't show my emotion now though, not now, not ever. Why didn't I take your place? Or come in and save you and the last moment, you would still be here, we would still be here, we would figure out another way to end it. It shouldn't have ended like this. I'm sorry.

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Phew, long foreword, but it's all necessary I swear. Welcome to any readers, feel free to hit the "Subscribe" button and hopefully you'll enjoy this little journey >.< I'll update soon!