baekhyun hated cold. it was a winter night and it was snowing. the two boys locked themselves in baekhyun's warm room. the older set on his bed with his computer on his lap. " christmas is coming soon, I guess we won't get the chance to hang out often together " sighed the taller eyeing his untouched hot chocolate in his hands. " Yeollie, you know how my family is. they always plan meetings with other people to show together in .." " a picture perfect like family -cut him chanyeol- I know but I feel so alone. also. " posed the taller trying to form a correct sentence "also?? " asked the shorter who have been waiting so long for the other to talk " also. grandpa wanted me to invite you to sleep over our house at christmas " "I'm sorry.but, I really can't . my dad had planned for us to spend the christmas at the huangs house . I'm sorry " whispered the white prince letting go of the computer beside him, and walking near chanyeol who was sitting on his office chair backing him. he came closer, put his head on one of his friend shoulders, hands hugging him slowly. "it's okay baekie, I really am okay " . baekhyun moved his head to let his nose touch his friend's ear " I am really very sorry. " . chanyeol took his friend's hands and putting them down. " It's okay baekie, I'll be going home now, grandpa must be worrying -grabbing his staff from the room- I'll call you later , see you " before baekhyun could say anything , chanyeol leaned closer to baekhyun and put a long kiss on his forehead -like he always used to- then turning around leaving the petite boy breathless. his heart was beating so fast, so loud in his ears. he wanted to cry to scream for him to come back, to hold him and tell him he would go with him. but his voice was stuck in his throught hurting him, wanting so badly to break free from his lips. "chanyeol........ wait " cried out the older in painful silence . from that day on he knew that he did miss up things and maybe broke things, between them and he wanted to kill himself for that FOR MAKING THINGS CHANGE BETWEEN BOTH OF THEM