“Yeah. Bye too~! Love you!” I acted like vomiting on the last line that I said

“So does it mean that you’re already my girl—“ I hung up

Bye for real, dude. I’m gonna go to another country and leave our memories behind like what you’ve did before.

*flashback*

“Happy Valentine’s Day! I-I-I love you ” I said with an eye smile while giving Kris a flower, this was during Valentine’s Day. Kris, a very adorable young man, I thought.

“N-Neh. I-I love you too, Eun Hye” he faked a smile as he ran away

(That’s my name, Lee Eun Hye)

Since then, he talked to me comfortably, mostly asking questions and copying assignments and letting me do his projects

I accepted it all happily, thinking that in this way, he would really love me back

I waited ‘til the White Day or the Black Day for me. Maybe, I expected too much. I waited for him to give me a flower but what he did is left on that exact day to go somewhere to continue studying and leave me a letter “I hope that you’re not numb and dumb. I just used you. Araseo?”

That day, I realized my stupidity and promised myself of not loving again. He’s the first guy whom I loved, also the first one to destroy my heart, and will always be the first one to make my eyes water

***

I just laughed at that flashback. Before, I trailed after him and did all kinds of stupidity but turns out that it’s already the other way around. I fell in love with him without any reason, that’s foolish, but I made him fall in love for me to play with his feelings, that’s evil.

I used to love you, but you wasted it. You love me now, now I’m wasting it

Someday, when we meet again on that same bridge, I’ll be strong enough to look up and flash a smile with all our memories erased.

***

2 years later

We have no communication and some part of me likes to go back to Korea and just take a peek of him. I changed myself a lot, I thought that I’ll be the one to torture his heart, I expected that I’m able to hurt him once that I make him fall for me. Most of all, I thought I would totally forget him, but there’s a part of me pushing me back to the past.

I desperately want to go back.

Korea, I miss that place. Our old school, my classmates that bullied me for being a nerd, my teachers that are always in favor of me, the janitor that looks up on me and throws me a radiant smile every time I pass the hallway, the snowflakes every Christmas… That bridge where we met… And especially him.

Leaving him caused me nothing. I still don’t got the happiness I was expecting to have

I already hurt him and I know that. Let me just clean this mess up.

I walked back and forth around my room desperately thinking for a speech

I faced the mirror and did some gestures, looking crazy, talking to myself

“Look, Kris, I’m sorry. I just had this strong emotion when you left a short letter telling me that you just used me. You know, it hurts a lot and—ugh! He wouldn’t be satisfied with that explanation! Aish!” I ruffled my hair and fixed it again

“I trust you, Lord” I looked up and left for Korea. It’s actually my flight today

I continuously rub my hands slide past against each other while blowing on it. Maybe those beside me think I’m crazy because the whole trip, I kept on doing weird things.

I covered my face and heaved a sigh. I quickly stood up and bumped someone “Mianhamnida” I bowed to the girl who looked just same as my age. She just smiled “Gwenchana”

Going back here in Korea, does it mean, me going back in being stupid?

I rode on a taxi. The driver the radio

~Time Machine~

 Itsumo yori sukoshi hiroi heya tadahitori 
It's over, guess it's over 
 

Ah jinjjahyo? Does that station need to play that song?! What?! Are they referring to me?

~ Futari de tsukuri ageta sutōrī mo munashiku 
Kon'nani kantan ni kuzure teshimau nante ~

*Poker face*

~ One mistake, got a one regret ~

I just put on my earphones and listened to an energetic song

Finally, we’re here on that ‘historical’ bridge for me

I slowly walked on the same spot where we first met as I smiled genuinely like how I always smile before, wearing the dress that I wore before, at the exact date and time.

Happy couples can be seen around the park. I smiled to myself

*flashback*

He’s running so fast that he bumped me and we fell to the ground

Worst is, he accidentally stole my first kiss.

We stared at each other’s eyes, terrified. Then he stood up, shouting “Mianhamnida” while running away

***

I giggled as I looked up and saw a familiar body standing on the bridge, happily laughing…. With a girl

I stared at them until the boy caught my eye

His eyes widened and his jaw dropped

He flashed a sweet smile as he scratched his head “You didn’t tell me that you’re coming back. Meet my girlfriend, Kim Hye Lim” the girl waved at me

She’s the girl I bumped on the airplane

“Airplane girl~!” she cheerfully greeted me

I gulped and tried my best to form a smile on my lips but a stupid tear escaped from my eye. I tried to wipe it away but instead, tears began to flow

I quickly turned away

“Are you okay?” Kris asked

How dare you ask me like that? Do you know how much it hurts? I’ll never cry for you again! Stupid tears! I furiously wipe them away as I walked briskly, then someone held my wrist

“Sorry” Kris whispered. I bit my lip as I controlled my tears from flowing

I didn’t listen to him. I’m so stupid, I wasted his love. It was my only chance, maybe if I grabbed it, I’m the one who he’ll always take here, not that girl

I sniffed. “Hey, stop it” he made me turn to him

“I-I’m okay” I slowly wiped my tears. Aish! Babo! I told myself that when I saw him here I’ll flash a smile on him with my chin up but why is the opposite happening? He’s the one doing what I’m supposed to be doing. When will I move on?

“You’re not”

“Seriously, I-I’m fine” I turned away and ran

“Are you sure you’re ok?”

I stopped and shouted without looking at him “Kris, you broke my heart for the second time. You know why I came here? To ask if we could still have a chance, so you know, I’m so damn good.”

I sighed “If there’s one more chance for us, I’ll use it wisely, Kris, I’ll grab it. I’ll love you eternally” another tear escaped from my eye as I continued walking to nowhere.