I sat on the cold pavement, leaning on the filthy wall plastered with faded graffiti and peeling paint.

I like it here. I don’t care how many suspicious or mocking looks the passerby shoot at me. I feel like I belong here.

Alone, without anyone to care anymore. Not that I care anymore, too.

I smirked at the world, looking up to the blue sky. This could have been a happy day for anyone. For me.

Yeah, right.

As if happy is still an available option nowadays.

You used to be the only one who says you’ll give up your all. That I’m always going to be the first in your heart, no matter who we’ll be facing and what we’ll become.

But last I recalled, I’m the one who had to watch your back goes further and even further until t disappears, taking my heart and soul away altogether.

I smiled at the sky.

I used to feel okay even though I have no one else. I used to have myself and thought I would until the end, but turns out I’m wrong.

Look at me now. Does it satisfy you to watch me without doing or saying anything?

Witness me crumble without any broken pieces to mend. They just evaporate into the thin air and disappear.

You think you’re that good at acting?

I know you. I easily look past the excuses and lies you made without feeling guilty.

I’m not that dumb, though dumb enough to sit still and wait for the end.

You really think you’re going to be happy?

You know I can destroy all your illusion in a snap. But also the fact that you’ve had me. The fact that I wouldn’t be strong enough to fight back.

Not anymore when the person who taught me to is the one I’d be facing.

But you’ll see.

Fate has taken everything I had, and I know it sides with me now.

How did I know?

The same way I knew you’re going to break my heart one day the first time I saw you.

But just like that day, I’m going to let it have fun, and go with the flow.

And just like you smirked at me the day you went, with cockiness, confidence and pride, I’ll do the same.

At the world.

At the sky, for just being there without being able to do anything other than crying of all the earth creatures’ cruelty.

At everyone, for not being able to tell between truth and words.

At you, who think you’re going to get by just fine.

I might not be able to take my revenge, but my best friend will. To repay my favor, for letting it play its own game.

I let out a drop of the water we call tears off the corner of my eye as I turn one end of my lips up.

At destiny.

 

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Credits:

My inspiration and soundtrack when typing: CNBLUE-Alone (I'm A Loner)

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I wasn't planning this, was typing some other thing when the song pop out and the feel is very different with what I was doing and decided if I go on it'll ruin my work, so ditched that and here this goes.