Sehun’s world momentarily stops spinning. He hears his heartbeat slowing down. He feels his body stiffening.

“Why?” That simple question rings in his ears. He hopes for an answer but when he doesn’t receive one, he repeats, “Why?”

“Because my heart tells me so,” is the reply and Sehun swears he’s getting dumber by the minute because he doesn’t understand the logic behind that sentence at all.

Sehun doesn’t remember making any afford in their relationship.

Sehun doesn’t remember even trying to smile genuinely when Luhan makes an afford just to see him smile. Which is most of the time. Like everyday.

Sehun doesn’t remember anything except for the fact that he has been sulking and thinking about someone that he shouldn’t for years.

4 years. 4 years, 5 months and 3 weeks to be exact.

While Sehun has been counting the days that certain someone has left him unnoticed, Luhan has been counting the days he announced to the world that Oh Sehun is his boyfriend.

Luhan is patient, Sehun is not.

Luhan gives, Sehun thinks he takes but he doesn’t. He lets everything goes to waste.

Luhan sings Sehun lullabies, Sehun secretly cries himself to sleep.

Now, Sehun wants to cry again because what has he done to deserve someone like Luhan. He looks up and they lock eyes. Sehun notices how desperate Luhan wants him to tell Luhan that yes, yes he will