There will be a competition next week. They want to search for a lead vocal for a group and I seriously want to participate in it but, I don't have that courage to go on stage and sing like there's no one there. And that is the only ing thing I hate about me....being such a COWARD!

  But, there is a place where I like the most. It is because my grandma. Well, actually she is not my real grandma but I still like her! She always give me an advice about how's life going and something. That's kinda give me some strength to live up.

 I walk down the street to go to her flowers shop, fo your information, she sells many flowers and the most flower I like is white roses! It may sound like girlish but I just like it. It is because of it's beautiful and it look so sweet, and I really want to have a girlfriend that is beautiful as the white roses, sweet like the smell of it and nice like the colour of it. Besides that, I always so happy to see halmoni and I like to give her a shock like poking her waist or maybe shout her name when I open the door. Well, I usually does that, ;)

 "Angyeonghaseyo halmoni!" I shout as I open the door to give halmoni a shock, but then, I hear a loud thud,

 "Ah, you shock me," I heard a young girl voice coming,

 "Are you here to meet halmoni?" I shock by a girl apperance, I quickly bow to her and help her pick the tulips flower from the ground,

 "sorry, I didn't meant to afraid you," 

 "nah, it's okay. Both of us didn't see what's coming right?" I look at her. Then, the door swung open, with an old lady figure show up,

 "oh, Daehyun-ah. When did you came? Get up, let Chae do her work," I shake my head and say,

 "I'm the one who make she drop it, halmoni" I bend down and pick the last tulip and handed to Chae,

 "okay then. If you need me, I will be at the back." Chae get up and help her halmoni,

 "by the way, this is my grand-daughter, Lee Chaerin. Chae this is the kid that I tell you. His name is Daehyun, Jung Daehyun." she nod and show me her smile on that sweet-looking-plump-lips,

 "cut it out, Daehyun. If you want her, just ask her out. Chae can't stay here longer so, you better get  her a bear or something and ask her to be you girlfriend," both of us was like ' ugh,.. okay, did halmoni just said that? H-how did she.. nevermind'. Seriously... =.=;;

 "what?" Chae shook her head and help her halmoni who wants to go at the back of their store. After awhile, she come back with a bouquet of white roses that was neatly wrap in a pink wrapper and come at my direction,

 "here,"

 "huh? For what?" I take the flower from her hand,

 "halmoni want me to give it to you. She said that you like white roses. That is very cute of you, you know." I smile, then there's a song a vibrates coming from my phone showing the sign of a call coming. I answer the call, facing my back to Chae,

 "hey, where are you?" my friend, Yun's voice can be heard from the other side,

 "I'm at the flower store. Why?" 

 "about the competition, they change the date," 

 "what? When?!" I shout,

 "3 days from now," 

 "what? Why they make it so early? I didn't even get to practice yet!"

 "then, start practice!" I groan and say her a goodbye and turn to Chae, 

 "what's wrong?"

 "the date for the competition that I participate in,... it's change," she nod understanding,

 "it was 3 days from now. I don't have enough time to practice and I seriously didn't have any courage to sing on the stage!" Chae shook her head while I followed her to counter. Suddenly, she held my hand and that give me a goosebumps all over.

 "Daehyun, you have those spirit in you. What you need to do is believe in yourself and always practice for your competition, that's all," I nod listen to every word that come out from ,

 "T-thank you," she rub my cheek and smile,

 After that, I have been spending my time there until the shop close, just want to spend time with the girl that I love. I want to confess at her but, I want to do it after I win the competition. Actually, IF I WIN! And of course I will win since I have Chaerin to support me, oh, and also halmoni of course.  

 On the competition day, halmoni said that she will come to watch me and that is mean Chae will be coming too! I was getting ready to perform Mirotic song with my friends and then, I saw halmoni but I don't see any Chae sign. At the end of the competition, I run to halmoni as quick as light and stop infront of her, trying to inhale some fresh air into my lung,

 "hal-halmoni... hh---hhh wh--where is she?"

 "Chae? She went to Seoul, to go to her company where she will be a star. For now, she's still a trainee" I look at her,

 "she's going to be an Idol?" halmoni nod,

 "I told you to ask her out earlier didn't I? Now, who have lost? You." by then, she went away leaving me sitting on the ground crying out Chaerin's name. 

 After I cried a lot, I went to halmoni store and open it,

 "hye Daehyun," I look at the voice who is calling for me, halmoni.

 "hye halmoni," I reply her weakly,

 "here, this is present from Chae," halmoni hand me a bouquet of light pink roses,

 "Chae? Really?" I took the bouquet and examine it. There is an envelope hiding behind the flower, I open the envelope and found out there's a card in it. I read what's in the card-

  ~Dear Daehyun,

    If you read my card that's mean I'm not there anymore. Halmoni must have said about me going to be an Idol right? Yes, I'm going to be an Idol but, after I does my training for 1 month. But, even I'm an idol, I will never forget 'bout you cause you are my new friend.....

                                                                                       Love Lee Chaerin, Your Friend~

 After I read the all her words in the card, my heart crash because she only takes me as her friend.. not more than that. Then, I feel a hand patting on my shoulder,

 "She'll be back, so don't worry and I told ya didn't I? She can't stay here longer, I want to tell you about she'll be an Idol but she refuse to. So, I don't have any right to tell you, sorry" I hug halmoni and say it's okay. 

 After all the drama, I went back to the competition and my friends come to me in running motion. They all mad at me for running away before they could announce the winner. They told me that I get the place and I was happy but not that happy since Chaerin is not here to smile at me and punch me on the shoulders while saying 'chulkaeyo'. No Daehyun, she's not here anymore so you have to accept the fact that she went to Seoul to fulfill her dream and I will too. I will meet her someday, I will.

 -Back to the present-

 "hey, what are you thinking 'bout?" Yongguk come to me and sit next to me on the couch,

 "hyung, do you have any experience about a girl who help you and support you suddenly be gone? The girl that you love" I wasn't expect him to nod, but yeah, he nod as in 'yes',

 "I do have one. She help me with my family problems and support me to fulfill my dream. And she's the girl that I love and she left me at the club alone. Since I didn't tell her how I felt, she won't know a thing" he pat me on the thigh and say,

 "have you pack your things? We will be leaving in an hour,"

 "where are we going?"

 "to 2ne1 sunbaenim house,"

 "do you mean an apartment?" he shook his head,

 "they have house?!" he nod and say

 "they have a villa for 4 of them and also a car for each of them," I gulp down the lump that stuck at my throat,

 "you better be hurry," he went to his share room with Himchan hyung... Wow, they have their own car? And a house for 4 of them? Aih~ it must be a small house right?.. I don't think so, since YG is rich enough to give them a car for each of them.. Aigoo~ why do TS have to cooperate with YG and not SM or JYP or Starship or else?

 -sigh- I do amaze by their performance. Especially, CL sumbaenim her rap was powerful, her image look cool and cold and she's beautiful. And she's even the lead vocalist! But that doesn't make me forget about Chae at all not a bit and I really, seriously, want to meet Chae. Chae where are you?.... Answer me please.