I am scared. Terrified. If I get any closer I'll faint. 

But he can't know that. I'm all he has left. If I leave too.........I don't even want to think of what will happen. 

I know he won't hurt me. I know it. He's still the same Jonghyun I met years ago. The JR that so many people look up to. 

I don't know when he changed. It had to have been recently. 

I don't know how he changed either. It was so sudden. One day, he has everything. He has a great job, great friends, great future. And the next day...the next day it's all gone. Now it's all gone.