I woke up finding myself in cold sweat. As I sit up, my body was shivering and my focus seems to be abit shaky. I find this normal. I can’t blame my nightmares that keeps on repeating it self after those incident back at my home country. At least I think it wasn’t.
For a moment I was confused of how did I get onto my bed when I was practising with the other members………..
Ah yes, sajang-nim(means boss in english) took a ride for me to go home when I suddenly felt sick really bad that I run to the bathroom across the practise room while the music was still on and I was still dancing with unnies and two younger dongsaengs. I guess they freaked out seeing me suddenly having a high fever. Ah, I need to apologized to choreographer oppa since he might be feeling it’s his fault for making us practising so hard. 

The bed on the other side is empty, which means those kids still haven’t come back from the company. Obviously since it’s still 8 in the night. They probably working hard training themselves at the practice room. 
I stand up to wash my face at the kitchen sink, slowly walking my way as my head still felt a little heavy. 
Just as I splash waters to my face I heard the door slammed and excited voices came in. I look up and peak at the empty space wall on my left, giving the image of the corridor at the door entrance. The unnies look so excited I wonder what’s going on.
“What is it?” I walked out the kitchen while wiping my face with a small towel. 
“Unni!” the youngest of all of us, Mi yeong rushes and hugged me tightly as I felt her giggling in my clothes. The second youngest Hee Yun, I don’t know, spazzing while bending down several times, that I can see tears in her eyes, she keep on trying to say something I couldn’t get. 

“Unni, what?” I raised my eye brows to both of the oldest and second oldest of all of us, Yoon Mi and Jee Sun.

*Note
~The order sequance of them according to age is this:
Oldest: Yoon Mi
Second: Jee Sun
Third: me
Fourth: Hee Yun
Maknae: Mi Yeong
 
 Jee Sun walk towards me with her cute smiling eyes and her lips were ear to ear, hugging me and Mi Yeong. 
“We’re going to debut soon!” Yoon Mi said in a very high pitch and everyone jumps excitedly and Hee Yun was going crazy.
I was speechless. I feel numb. I don’t know how I feel. The level keeps on going up and reaching its peek, making me feel more heated and excited. 

“Oh my god. Oh my god. Oh my god” I repeat these words over and over again and all of us went crazy in front of the kitchen door. My head was dizzy but it wasn’t thumping hard like hours ago. In fact I feel too much feels that I don’t have time to recognized dizziness. Suddenly we heard knocking.

The other members were seriously wanted to scream more but Yoon Mi raises her hand, telling us to calm down as she walk to the door. I heard a girl voice that sounded like Hyosung unni and, many other people.
“I think our seniors came here.” Jee Sun stands up and peeks in at the wall. Jee Sun smiled widely as I saw Hana Unni peek at us. She walk to us three left here and hug us.
“Yo Zinger~” Mi yeong, which is a rapper like her, jokingly greet her with her stage name. They are pretty close.
“Congrats Congrats Congrats come on heat up we’re partying for you guys!” Hana unni giggles, I look at her closely and she notice me.
“hmm~ your cheeks are red~” She said.
“Unni you just came here and you’re drunk.” 
“aiigooo our ____ is so cute~” She drops on me as she moves me left to right.
“Unni you need to get up she has a fever, she’ll collapsed before you do.” Hee Yun pulled her away from me and Hana laughed.
I stand up, tying my hair in a messy pony tail with a hair band I found on the desk, where all of our memories like pictures gathered. I feel cold as my necks are open in the air. I can hear my breathing from my mouth and feel the heat. But even so, I feel a bit fresher and better after i washed my face.
Everyone came, the other trainees, B.A.P, Secret, other seniors, the production team and sajang-nim. 
Okay, I admit, it’s been 7 months since i start training, I’ve been a fan of B.A.P and they still doesn’t know I’m their fan. But I only spazz when their on tv, in reality, it feels nothing but meeting as friends.
“Wait why do you guys need to party here it’s a dorm it’s not really big for all of you to cramp on.” Jee Sun said innocently.
“Ah, it’s okay it’s less than 20 people anyway your dorm is pretty big I’m sure it won’t get cramp.” Sajang-nim said. 
I stand there as I see people coming in, and my eyes darted to choreographer oppa. I apologized to him and bow my head. He laugh it off and smile to me while rustling my hair. 
“You don’t have to worry about it. It can’t be help” As he say.
Of course the party was going, but I can’t drink alcohol as well as Mi Yeon and Hee Yun. So we just drank carbohydrate drink to feel the aura they all have. I didn’t drink that much as my throat feels a bit sore. And I start to sweat again. I didn’t want to go to sleep and meet my same nightmares. 
”___-ah you alright?” Himchan, the ulzzang of B.A.P that happens to sit beside me notice me that I started to look down to my lap. I nod slowly, doesn’t want to cause a mood spoiler. I look up and smile to him and he nod as well but still keeps his eyes on me. I saw his mouth muttering in the air from the corner my eye. Probably talking to others but I didn’t bother.
Suddenly I feel another warmth touches my forehead and blocks a bit of my vision. I blushed when I see Youngjae, the vocalist of B.A.P, or maybe I always blushed from hours ago. He was kneeling down and one knee up in front of me with his hand on my forehead, and since i wear shorts, i can feel his pants brushing onto my skin. Making me feel more embarrassed. 
For a short moment he look at somewhere with his hand still on my forehead, and I moved my head a bit to follow his vision. He is whispering in the air to Yoon Mi. And Yoon Mi smirked at me and nods.
He looks back to me and I look back at him. I saw at the corner of my eye Himchan was looking at both of us and I feel much more heated. 
“Come on.” Youngjae grabs my arms gently.