Too much happended to much thing's learned but most of all, too much things freely ran in my mind.

for example:

How to get my quota

What ways will I have to do do get it?

Where to find my resource

Will I pass or fail

Will I even get this done on time 

and lastly

Will he really ignore me if I didn't do it.

That was a burden to me and it was so stressful and guess what?

I didn't make it! I failed and he really did ignore me.

It was the most painful thing I've ever experienced after the break-ups and , but this was different.

He was, or somewhat my boss, my friend, my brother and family.

I would always say, I think of him as more than a friend but less than lovers, though I dont know if that's what he thinks of me.

It's painful to be ignored by that one person you trust, and not even my bestfriend, I trust like the way I trust him.

We have fought this one time about someone I'm eyeing on he made it too much of a deal, but in the end I could't stay mad 

and up till now even if I get ignored, I would always consider him someone I really cared about. Someone I could share my thoughts and heart out, someone that I could lean on, someone I love unselfishly and someone I truly respect despite the not so good things I know, his flaws and . 

I'll do this new quota with all my ability this time to get things into place once again. 

XOXO

YOU CAN DO IT!