We were in love, disgustingly in love.... But there is love they will never knew.. There is love they will never understand... There is our love...Love of our life

 there is love when you think about that you’ll feel disgusting.. but it is my love.. and I am hurt about that.

“Hyung..” I blinked my eyes repeatly.. “Hyung” that voice called me again, I turned my eyes at the voice and stunned.

“Myungsoo..” I hissed, MyungSoo looked at me silently, I saw those red and puffy eyes again, everytime I looked at him always like this, and it was so sick..sick deep in my heart.

“Hyung… SungJong is in the living room..” I closed my eyes immediately after I hear that name slipped of MyungSoo’s lips, I can hear the pain.. I can hear and I can feel.

“Okay Myung-ah, you can go, I will go down in minutes, tell Jongie please” I said softly, MyungSoo, nod before walked out of my room, I chew my lips, his sad face hurting my heart again.

“I am sorry Myungsoo..” I whispered and quickly stood up, walking toward the door.

I love you.. you are the one.. someday I’ll tell you about this..someday.

“Jongie..” SungJong looked at me and smiled.

“yeolli hyung.. lets go to a date, today..” I chuckled when SungJong showed me his puppy eyes ”it been one month we didn’t go to date.. and jongie is awful borreeeedd” He pouted, I smiled and walked closer at him, rufling his soft hair.

“of course..where do you want to go..” I ask, SungJong frown as he wrinkled his forehead, thinking.

“dunno.. hyung your choice please..” he whined, I smirks.

“how about amusement park” His eyes widened and quickly nodding his head.

“good idea hyung.. I love you” he cheer up while leaned forward and gave me a quick kiss, I smiled, but my smiles soon vanished as My eyes meets MyungSoo’s eyes, he give me a bitter smile, before walked toward his room again, I sighed and looked down at SungJong who was cuddling with me, he look up at me and smiled, I smiled back.

Why this is so hard

“Hyung you know I love you right..” I looked at SungJong, and smiled at how red his face, He giggled shyly as I caress his cheeks.

“yes I know Jongie…” He bit his lips, holding his smile to appear again, I can see how happy he is, and its hurting me again.

“I really love you hyung..” I managed to hold my sighs to escaped, He looked up at me and suddenly his happy eyes changed. “but why are you never say those words to me..??” I stunned.

“jongie..” he sighed.

“is it hard for you, to saying that you love me too hyung.. it had been 2 years, but you never said those words to me..” I grabbed his shoulder and forced him to looked at me.

“jongie..looks Hyung is sorry,, I am sorry.. but.. yes it is.. it so hard.. I Likes you, okay.. but..you know my heart belong to someone else.”

“why hyung..?? am I just replacement…?? Why you do this to me..?? MyungSoo can’t and never will be yours..it disgusting hyung… he is your freaking brother.. he is never..”

“Jongie stop please..” I beg, SungJong looked at me, hurt.

“ I know this..but I don’t need your ‘like’ I need your ‘LOVE’ hyung, don’t you understand me..??” He started to tearing up, I gently hold his hand and my other hand,caress his cheeks.

“Jongie.. I.. I just.. you know.. I can’t, I try…. Really, because I think about you everyday.. but I.. it just too hard.. I am sorry..I really am..” I softly said, SungJong looked at me with tears streaming down his pale face.

“learn to love me Hyung.. please..” I quikly pulled him into me embrace.

“I will.. I will..” he sobs

“I dream about it hyung.. that you love me.. I dream.. and I pray.. for your love..please..” It hurt.. it sick, but… when I talk about Love.. Just MyungSoo’s face appear in my mind, and I know it too deep and I can’t climbed up again..falling down deeply and can’t comeback again.

I pray too.. jongie..

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