I was shocked after the news about Chinen but we had to go through it. He was doing things on the hospital pretty much everyday and his hair started to fall down. It was just to keep being strong for him and for the child. He was doing his best in fighting. 

- MIKU, Yamada screamed downstairs when I was fixing my laundry.

- HAI, I screamed as I walked down the stairs.

- Where is Chinen?

- He's on the hospital, nande?

- Just wanted to check how he was doing, he answered with a smile.

He walked to me and hugged me like a brother and started to talk to my stomach.

- One day there was a big monkey that liked to sing..., he said but I continued.

- and his name was Yamada Ryosuke, I said and laughed as the pouted with his mouth.

- that wasn't funny, he said like he was 5 years old.

- Kawaii ne, I said and pinched his cheek.

- Aouch, he said and looked angry.

- You really are cute when you are acting like you do.

- I am??, he asked happy.

- Hai, I said and smiled.

- So how are you?, he asked randomly

- That was so random..., I said and smiled.

- I'm serious, how are you?

- I'm fine, why do you ask?

- You have a baby in your stomach, the father of the child and the boyfriend are sick, how are you really feeling?

- Oh that, well I have different moods everyday.

- Just so you know, we are always here for you, everyone is here for you. Just come to us if you feel down because even if we have a show, someone can always come to you.

- Hontou?

- Hai, he said and smiled.

I was fangirling his smile, he looked so perfect. He was a typical father and boyfriend type.

- Miku, someone said near the door.

- Hai?

- Can you help me with Chinen?

- Eh?

Both me and Yamada walked to the door and there my mother with my boyfriend that was sleeping.

- Where did you find him?

- He was sleeping outside of the door.

- That's scary, sure that he is sleeping?

- No... that's why I need help.

Me and Yamada helped Chinen to his bed and I called his doctor.

- Moshi moshi, he said.

- Moshi mosh, what did you give Chinen today?

- Chinen hasn't been here today.

- Really?

- Yeah, I was wondering where he was.

- My mother found him asleep outside of the door. I said goodbye to him so it's weird that he was outside.

- Have you tried to use a light to his eyes? because if he wakes up then, he was just sleeping  but if he's not, you have to come in with him.

- Oh okay, I said and tried it and he actually woke up with a big headache.

- He has a big headache.

- I will come, the doctor said. After some minutes the doctor was here to do a checkup.

- He is getting better.

- Really??

- Hai.

I smiled big and hugged Yamada and Chinen was still away. I walked to Chinen and he was opening his eyes with a smile. 

- Chinen is going to get better, I said and looked him in the eyes. He smiled at me but he didn't seem happy, neither did Yamada. Yamada stopped smiling. 

- Ey have something happend?

- Ie, Yamada said and smiled. 

- You don't have to give me a fake smile.

I said goodnight to Chinen and walked outside with Yamada.

- Tell me!

- He's getting worse, didn't you see that he was fighting in pain inside of that room. Didn't you see it in his eyes?

- He looked kinda sad...

- Miku. He is alone in that room and fighting for continue living. He has a pain that makes him breath slowly. 

- How do you see it?, I asked in a shock.

- I'm smart.

Yamada was leaving so I walked into the room again and sat down beside him on the bed. He was so wet in the face.

- Chinen fight, but if you can't fight anymore, if it's so bad in that pain. Give up! You can't have pain all the time.

- M...Miku, he said and looked at me with tears.

- Hai?

- It hurts, he said and pointed at his stomach.

I helped him to take of his clothes, he was bleeding.

- EH?, I screamed and mom came up fast with the doctor.

- This is the reason, I said in tears.

Later that night when I was going to sleep, he woke up and had much energy.

I was brushing my teeth and he came inside of the toilet and hugged me.

- You are standing, my boy is standing, I said in tears.

- Thank you for noticing it.

- How did it happen?, I asked

- I don't remember, he said and looked confused.

I stopped brushing my teeth and went to bed.

- Oh right, you have slept all day and now I'm going to sleep.

- I'm kinda tired, he said and laughed.

- Really?, I said and laughed.

- Hai, he said and smiled. He was beside me and smiled at me, his eyes were sparkling.

- How are my cute little baby today?, he asked his child and touched my stomach. Suddenly the child was playing football so you could see the foot.

- Hahah he's happy that you're happy, I said and smiled.

- I'm glad, he said and we was falling asleep.

The next morning when I woke up he wasn't there.

- I dressed myself in a dress and walked downstairs and I smelled the breakfast.

Is mom already up?

When I came down, Chinen stood in the kitchen and made panncakes.

- SUGOI, I screamed and he smiled.

- I'm good at making food.

My stomach did a sound.

- And you sure are hungry!

- Hai, I said and I helped out with making it nice on the table.

From nowhere a Yamada came and I was shocked.

- Eh? How did you come into this house?, I asked.

- I have been here since 6 am.

- oh...

We all sat down at the table.

- Ittadakimasu, we all said and we started to eat.

- SUGOI, I screamed of happiness.

- Arigatou, I said and smiled big.

- Don't say thanks, that's my work nowadays.

- Kawaiii, I said and laughed.