A month ago

"Oppa!" You squealed as Myungsoo grabbed you by the waist and spun you around. Laughter rang around your house as the both of you fell on the couch and just lay there with contented smiles. Myungsoo cupped your face in his hands and kissed your nose. 

"Aish jinjja, I told you my nose is oily multiple times! You just don't listen." You crossed your arms and pouted.

Myungsoo chuckled at your cute concern and pinched your cheeks. "Aigooo, my jagiya ~ Who cares? Besides, its not oily, its your own imagination baby." Myungsoo grinned as he kissed you on your lips, causing you to smile and kiss him back.

As the both of you sat in comfortable silence, you couldn't help but squirm in your seat as the thought of him leaving you crossed your mind. You turned to him and furrowed your eyebrows at how perfect his side view looked... His sharp jawline, pink kissable lips that slightly jutted out in a pout and those eyes, those dark brown orbs that usually penetrated you with an intense gaze.

You thought, 'Why would someone as handsome as he is... would want someone as inappropriate as I am? Would he leave me soon?'

Myungsoo had realised you were staring at him with a blank expression and waved his hand in front of your face. "Jagiya? Wae? Gwenchana?" 

You snapped back to reality and blinked rapidly. "Huh? Yeah, I'm fine." Myungsoo raised an eyebrow. "Don't lie, I'm sure there's something on your mind.. Come on, tell me babe. Don't you trust me?"

Since, he put it that way, who could deny right? You dared not make eye contact as you carefully said, "You'll leave me for another woman one day, won't you?"

Myungsoo's face immediately turned into a shock one as he stared at you. He contemplated his words carefully before he gently tilted your head to meet eyes with you. He scooted closer and pushed your head onto his chest as he your hair. "Baby.. you were thinking about that the whole time? Oh come on.... don't you have a little more trust than that on your boyfriend?"

He chuckled and your cheek before continuing, "To be honest baby.... I don't really regret choosing you. You know why?"

You shook your head.

He laughed and pulled you up. He cupped your face and leaned close to your lips, breathing against it like he didn't know how that could drive you insane.

"Because, my oh so innocent and sweet girlfriend, because I love you. I love you for only you, I don't care about looks, nor do I care about what anybody says. What matters most to me," he paused and gazed into your eyes. As he slightly grazed his lips against yours.

He breathed, "is you." And with that, he kissed you passionately and poured out all his feelings into that one kiss.

At that time.... he seemed like the perfect boyfriend to you, didn't he?

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It was 2am in the morning as you paced around the room helplessly, thinking about what to say after he had come home. Myungsoo was in the bathroom, washing up when he had come home that night with an angry expression. He had ignored you when you invited him in.

You couldn't stand this anymore, for the past one week he had treated you as if you were air. Is this what you call love? If it was... then you couldn't be bothered with it anymore can you?

Myungsoo had already come out of the bathroom and was now drying his hair, his back facing you.

You trembled at where you stood as you cleared your throat to get his attention. Myungsoo turned to you with an annoyed expression. "What?"

You showed him your phone. "Oppa...may I know who is this?" You dared take a step closer and showed him the photo of him and another girl holding hands and staring into each others eyes.

Your friend had sent you that picture a week ago. You just didn't have the courage to confront him anymore. Realising he wasn't the sweet and kind Myungsoo you knew.

Myungsoo narrowed his eyes at you and scowled. He jumped up from the chair and pranced towards you, yanking your phone away with so much force, it caused you to fall. 

He smirked, "What the hell is wrong with you? Why do you go around stalking your own boyfriend? FOR GOODNESS SAKE! I NEED MY OWN SPACE ONCE IN AWHILE!"

Tears had welled up in your eyes as you struggled to get up with your blurry vision. You closed your eyes and tried to remain calm.

You opened your eyes to find Myungsoo right in front of you, looking down at you with so much anger and annoyance, it made you want break up with him right there and then.

"Space? You wanted space?" Your voice came out in a whisper as you plucked up all the courage you had to stare right back at him. Myungsoo scoffed, "Duh. I have my own life too."

You breathed in sharply as your mouth pressed into a thin line. "Space? Is seeing another girl when you have a girlfriend called space? IF YOU WANTED THAT SO MUCH IN THE FIRST PLACE, WHY DON'T YOU JUST BREAK UP WITH ME?! Isn't that simple?"

Placing your hand on top of your heart, you sat on the bed. You looked away as tears started to stain your cheeks. "Myungsoo, I can't take this anymore. For the past few weeks, your temper has been the same. Where has my sweet Myungsoo gone to?"

Myungsoo started guffawing and staring at you in disgust. "Fine, you wanted the break up. I will gladly do it, to your satisfaction. And for your information, I'm no longer YOUR sweet Myungsoo.

As he headed out the door, you looked up at him once more, feeling your own guilt gnawing at your heart, you thought 'what did i just do to myself?'

--

It had been a month since you both broke up. You had been feeling better since there were friends around to comfort you.

But you couldn't help but think about Myungsoo once in awhile. Was he doing okay? Was he happy with his new girlfriend? Was he thinking about you too?

Truth is, he wasn't. He wasn't happy, he wasn't doing well. He always came home drunk, he would wallow in self pity about how stupid he was to let you go. He called you multiple times, but you had changed your phone number. He tried finding you at your house but you were always never home.

He fought his feelings for that one whole month. Wanting to find you so badly, wanting to feel you in his embrace again. He wanted to get back that feeling of being so deeply in love with you, your touch, your scent, your everything. He wanted you back. But how? Was he trying hard enough?

He himself didn't know. The only thing he knew was, he had to find you...

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A/N : Annyeong! I'm done! Like finally! I hope I didn't disappoint you with this one? I know it didn't turn out as you guys wanted right? haha drop a comment about what you think of this? Thank you! 

I will post more one shots next time ^^ 

And to clear some thoughts, Myungsoo and you do not live in the same house. He just visits you or sleeps in your room ever so often okay? ^^