When the one I loved died, I wished that they had let me crawl into my lover’s casket. Why should either of us be alone? Both of us knew that it should not be this way. We were supposed to be together forever it… should not have ended this way. I am so sorry this is my entire fault. Please forgive me I love you always.

You want me to it up don’t you? That nothing will change the past, I should look forward and look back, and smile on the times we had and love we made. Our children are growing so fast you would be so proud.

I wish I didn’t have to speak about you in the past tense and say things like how you would have liked something instead of you will like it. I am tired of being strong so let me be weak for just a little while.