Kyuhyun’s POV I took a deep breath as I tried to supress the tear that is threatning to escape. I want to avenge for Ryeowook’s death. I regret not being able to be there for him when he needed someone to rely on. I regret not giving him the love I could’ve gave him. I reget not giving him the love he deserves. I’m thankful for the truth behind my car crash. I’m disheartened that Ryeowook had to face all these hardships alone. I’m sorry for not noticing earlier. I’m sorry for not being there. I have nothing to say but I'm sorry. So many emotions are welling up inside of me but I tried to gather all the strength I have left as I wiped away the stray tears. I closed my eyes as I took a deep breath. Once I opened my eyes, I noticed a butterfly hovering by the side of my window before it rested on the car’s side mirror. “Are you okay Kyu?” Donghae asked. I nod my head and press play. Ryeowook’s voice was beginning to fill the silent car as I continued to look at the butterfly that was still resting by the side mirror. Well ladies and gentlemen, you’ve reached the last and final story. I’ve narrated the memoir of my life. I’ve revealed the secrets most of you didn’t know about and confirmed the rumor you were probably curious about. Don’t get too excited... because it’s not over yet. How was it though? Was my story tragic enough to keep you guys interested? Did I manage to keep you at the edge of your seat and keep the suspense going? Hahaha… It should be interesting right? It should catch your attention since the stories I’ve told aren’t fiction... they’re real. The stories I’ve told are real events that people have done to me. Those people are now listening patiently as I reveal the last and final story. I don’t know about you guys, but for me, making these tapes was like taking a trip back to memory lane. However, instead of feeling nostalgic, it aroused painful emotions that I had felt in the past. I recalled memories that I wished to forget. You might be wondering… if making these tapes are only bringing back painful memories, why am I making these tapes. Like I said in the previous tape, Kim Ryeowook died the day Siwon and Jongwoon hyung made me board that plane after the club incidence. I obeyed and did what was expected of me but I feel as if my soul is floating somewhere else. My body is still walking on earth but my mind and soul is waiting when my life would finally end. All I can think of is “When can I be finally be free”. When would I be liberated from the constant cycle I wish to escape from? Don’t get me wrong, as I reflected upon the life that I’ve had, not everything were unpleasant. On some aspects, I guess it could even be considered as satisfying. I’ve had moments where I was content. I’ve had moments where I could even admit that I was satisfied with my life. Just like everyone else, I’ve had a fair share of good memories. Some of these memories include the time when I was being scouted, my first performance as a Super Junior member, and receiving our first award. However, those good memories are being overshadowed by the painful events that I’ve had to endure. I was never optimistic about my life, but I always try to overcome the troubles I had to face. As life continued on testing me with more suffering one after another, the distress it caused me eventually became too overwhelming that it resulted to this. All of a sudden, a loud knock by the door could heard and disrupted Ryeowook’s narration. I reached over the cassette player and pressed pause. I looked outside and the butterfly from earlier was no longer visible. The only thing that I saw is Yesung standing by my car door. I opened the window and said, “What do you want?” “What’s up with you Kyu? You’ve been acting strange these past few hours,” Yesung said as he walked closer to my door. “Skip the nonsense and just get on with what you really want to say,” I demanded. I glared at him and stayed quiet. He didn’t say anything for a while. The silence was interrupted when Yesung said, “Siwon is in the hospital and he’s badly injured.” “I wish he recovers…” I began to say as I tried to supress the anger that’s building up. I took a few deep breaths as I continued and said, “I wish he recovers so that he can rot in jail.” “You’re not seriously-” Yesung began to say when I interrupted him and said, “You knew. This whole time you knew that Siwon Ryeowook. You knew about it but you did nothing.” “I don’t know what you’re talking about Kyu,” Yesung tried to defend himself. “Cut the act Yesung! Save it for someone who can easily be fooled. I know you’re not here because you’re worried abou