Leeteuk fell against the door and broke down in tears. He could hear Siwon and Heechul pounding on the door furiously, begging him to open it. He wanted to. He so badly wanted to let his dongsaengs comfort him and protect him for a change. There was no doubt that he needed that.

But Leeteuk had no energy, no life left in him, to do anything anymore. What was the point? No matter how many times he succeeded, no matter how many times he tried, his efforts would always end up in vain. His eyes flashed to the nightstand, where he kept his razor.

Automatically, he picked himself up from the floor and headed to the bed. He sat down and picked up the razor and held it against his wrist. Leeteuk hesitated, but painful images of the past flashed across his mind, disregarding any fear.

Suddenly the door burst open and he saw Siwon and Kangin, standing at the doorway with horrified expressions. The latter walked into the room and grabbed Leeteuk’s wrist, “What the is wrong with you?”