It was night in Seoul and it was snowing lightly outside. I was excited to see you that day and it was the most memorable day for you; this would be your second year anniversary in After School along with Raina unni. I wished we debuted in the same month and year. So at least I would’ve known you for a long time.  Well we made everything special just for the both of you. All of us were waiting in the After School dorm. You went to your CF while we were waiting for your comeback.

The clock struck one in the morning we were getting worried. Supposed to be you were at the dorm somewhere at eleven. Omma was calling you but you weren’t answering. I tried to call you either but failed to reach you. E-young went to the living room to watch some variety shows. As soon as she opened the TV; news suddenly popped out.

“Breaking News! A car accident happened in 4^th Ave SW. A drunk driver crashed his car to one of the After School member’s car while the drunk driver is dead on arrival.” When E-young heard the news she called us immediately. We went to the living room well sort of irritated by the shouting of the maknae. All of us watched the whole news; I was standing while watching it. Omma, broke down crying as she saw one of her daughter got into an accident. The other members began to sobbed too. I was too shocked to see you in that state I do not know how to react.

“J-Jin, this is a dream right someone slap me hard and tell me I am only dreaming! I wanna wake up with this nightmare!” I shouted to them.

Appa and the others were trying to calm me I only ignored them and a single tear began to fall from my cheeks when the news was finished. We went to the said hospital you were taken in. As soon we got into the hospital I almost shouted to the nurse.

“Where’s Im Jin Ah?!” The nurse got startled from my question.

“Miss, your name please??”

“OMG! It’s Park Soo Young!” I shouted at the nurse.

“S-she’s in the operating room right now.” She nervously told us where the room was and we ran as fast as we could.

We waited impatiently outside of the operating room. Appa was walking back and forth and Omma tried to stop her, but she was totally ignored. Although all of us were praying that you would be okay after the operation while I at the moment I was crying silently at the corner. Uee unni tried her best to calm me down.

“Please, leave me alone.” Jooyeon unni patted Uee unnie’s shoulder and signaling leave her be for a moment.

Two hours later the doctor went out from the operating room. All of us gathered around him.  Omma asked.

“How is she?”

“Fortunately, she was sent to the hospital immediately or else she would have died of blood loss. The bad news was her head got a really bad impact and that could lead to memory loss and her larynx was injured due to the metal pierced her neck. This might affect her speaking or the loss of her voice it may take sometime to heal. She will wake up within three weeks.” That was what he told us before the doctor could leave.

“Btw, Park Soo Young here?” He turned around to face us.

“Yes, Doc?” I brushed off my tears and approached him.

“I saw this from the patient’s right hand and she was holding it tightly; your name is in it take a look for yourself.” He gave me the box and he smiled at me as he left me wondering.

The box got a blood stained on it I opened it and I saw the ring with my name carved on it. I broke down crying and clutched it near to my chest. I fell down on my knees as the other members tried to comfort me.

“Im Nana! I-I” Raina unni patted my shoulder and was about to say something, but she couldn't find the words so she wouldn't hurt me instead she gave a weak smile.

The nurses took her to a room, so she could stay there for the whole three weeks. She’d got bandages on her head and on her neck. Her silky skin had bruises and it hurts me to see her like that. I was watching the night sky in the window. Snow was still falling from the sky. Omma was sitting next to her bed while she was holding her hand. Appa was staring sadly to the sleeping body of hers. The others were sobbing silently on the couch. Even if I wanted to cry for some reasons I couldn’t find the tears falling from my cheeks.

That day on I packed my things for the rest of the whole three weeks only just to stay with her. I only brought which were necessary. I decided that I wouldn’t participate to any After School activities until she’s well again. Our manager understood my reasons and the good thing was she let me stay with her while the other members were doing our After School projects.

The whole one week was like a hell for me I was longing for your touch, your sweet smile, your pranks, your kisses, and your love. I never had the chance to see the outside world as I kept myself around you, twenty four seven. I was glad to have a very caring group member or to be exact my family here in Seoul. They always visit us whenever they didn’t have any schedules. They brought us foods and flowers; sometimes they tried to cheer me up.

Second week had just passed and the third week just ended yesterday. Unfortunately there were no signs of her. I kept praying to see you waking up this moment, but my prayers were ignored. I think I would go insane without you. You’re my whole life and my whole world. Her so called the perfect body like the other people always say got skinnier. The doctor came in and he did a quick checked up. He looked at me with a long face.

“What’s up doc? Please tell me..why is she not waking up? The third week just ended, please doc what is happening in here.” I asked him with curiosity and at the same time I was worried like hell.

“I’m sorry to tell that your friend fell into comma this time. I’m very very sorry to say this Miss Park. I never thought that it would end up like this.” He was shaking his head with sadness written all over his face.

“What?! You must be kidding?! Don’t tell jokes damn it!” I couldn’t believe this was happening to me or to both of us.

“The only thing we can do for now is to wait until she wakes up. I’m sorry for this bad news.” He left us alone and I hugged her body so tightly.

“Please wake up..for me I cannot stand this anymore I love you. I hope I could beat that driver to death to avenge you.”

Appa and Omma received the news about her situation. All the members went immediately to the hospital. Jooyeon unni went first inside I was sitting next to her bed and I was staring at the ceiling mindlessly; tears were falling. I’d never cried since the day she was involved into an accident. They felt sorry at the sight of me.

“Lizzy?” Uee said, but no movements came from me. I couldn’t stand the fact that she was in comma. E-young cried and Omma at the sad news.  

Omma hugged me.”Lizzy, it’s going to be alright someday she will wake up. We just need to be patience don't lose your faith on her.” I didn’t say a word and my tears kept falling. Uee unni decided to stay that night to accompany me.

Two and a half months still there were no signs of her. I’ve been away from the kpop industries for that long time. I only cared about the girl next to me now. Hoping someday she would wake up and she would smile at me like before. February came you were still asleep I kept waiting for you every day. Although it felt like you were not going to wake up for the past few months I’ve waited you for.

The second week of February I was sleeping next to your bed while holding your hand. I felt movements in my hand I got up immediately. For the long months you were sleeping you woke up at last. You opened your eyes slowly and you tried to sit up. I helped you to get you in position and I pushed the button next to your bed to call the doctor. I called Omma about the good news and all of them rushed to the hospital. The After School members were looking at you with tears in their eyes and I was staring at you but I wasn’t crying unlike them. She was looking at my other members with curiosity and looked at me for a long time before she went back staring to the other members trying to recognize me, I think?

“She’s fine I’ve told you before the complications about her accident, so don’t be shocked if she doesn’t remember one of you or can’t utter a single word. I may leave you now.” The doctor went out after that.

“Ahm..Nana do you happen to remember us?” Uee asked with worried look in her eyes? She looked at us for about two to three minutes. She opened trying to speak but she wasn’t able to utter a single word. Jooyeon unni gave her a paper and a pen so she could communicate with us. After about a minute she showed us her message. “Yes, but this blonde here is she a new member?” She pointed her finger at me. Everyone looked at me with pity looks on their faces. I looked at her with a sad face. Actually were the only two who had the blonde hair in the group. Most of them are brunette or black. I only laughed at it and I told them that I needed some air. I grabbed my jacket and my gloves and I headed outside.

“Lizzy..wait.” Appa and Omma shouted they were about to follow me, but Uee unni stopped them and insisted to accompany the girl who had just woken up from the long comma.

“I will do it, please stay there.” Then Uee unnie followed me.

Even if it was February it was still snowing. I sat on the garden I didn’t care the cold at all. I was kinda hurt that she didn’t even remember me even just a little proportion in her memories.

“Lizzy, why did you leave? It’s cold outside you know.” She asked.

“I don’t care how cold it’s I just wanna process this properly in my mind.”

“I know it hurts to hear this importantly hearing it from her just do your best to remember you. You should be happy she woke up for almost about four months in comma Lizzy.” Uee hugged me from the back. “We should get back there now cheer up.” I only nodded and went back to her room.

Valentines came I went outside to buy you some flowers and chocolates. In spite of that you were clueless at first and you didn’t care at all or those I bought to you didn’t mean anything to you. I’ve tried my best to convey my love for you. Even these were only little simple things. I’ve been trying my best to reach you or to let you remember me but it seemed there was no progress to whatever I'd done. Well somewhere in March we were getting closer and she became so clingy like she was before when she still remembered me.

It stopped snowing somewhere in the middle of March. I was looking at the box that she was holding when the accident occurred. I put the box on top of the table that night and in the next morning. She woke up earlier than me she saw the box and grabbed it. I woke up when I heard small voices that was coming from her. She was holding her head and her eyes were shut. I saw the box on her hand.

“Are you okay? I’m gonna call the doctor.” I was about to pushed the button, but she stopped me using her right hand while she was holding her head using her left hand. She shook her head saying that wasn’t needed.

It was been two months when she woke up in comma. I felt so lonely without her love and the intimate relationship with me. That day I was watching the rain and admiring the city from the window. I heard tapped on the table next to her. I quickly turned my head and showed me what she wrote on the paper. “Can we go out and go around in the hospital it’s getting boring here”. I smiled “Of course.” I called the doctor to get a permission to go around in the hospital and they gave us her wheel chair. We went around at the hospital that day and some other people were looking at us. Mostly because they recognized us, but they didn’t dare to approached us.

It was in the middle of July when AS came to the hospital to visit us. They were chattering and  she wote down her response to her unni's. I was only staring at her with a smile on my face I was kinda jealous at the sight of her clossness with the other members. I was glad that little by little she was coming back to her old self, but actually she was not as very closed with me like the other members though. I went outside to buy some food downstairs and left them.

It was July and it was my birthday. I was saddened when my family couldn’t make it or to be exact the whole After School on my birthday. As usual it was raining again that night I was watching the rain; sitting next to the window. I switched off the lights, because I wanna see the beautiful view of Seoul that night. She was sound asleep I sobbed quietly and I heard noises on her bed. I turned around I brushed off my tears and I saw her standing next to her bed with a smile on her face. Her hands were on her back like she was hiding something from me.

“S-sorry If I woke you up.” I said and she only shook her head instead she walked to my direction. I looked at her with questioning eyes, but her smiling face never faded away. I stood up from where I was and when I was about to say something she hugged me. I was shocked at her sudden action.

“Happy Birthday Soo Young sorry if it took me so long to remember you.” She let go off me my eyes began to water as I couldn’t hold it anymore. The tears fell down on my cheeks.

“Geez, Soo Young don’t cry now.” She cupped my face and brushing off the tears on my cheeks. Her smiled faded away as she leaned forward and gave me a kiss that I was longing for about six months. As I put my arms around her neck and she put her hand on the back of my head to deepened the kiss. We parted and she said “I don’t wanna see my love crying it hurts me to see you like this.” This time she kissed me passionately as she put her left arm around my waist. We broke the kiss to get some air and she let go off me. She stepped back a little bit and she knelt down on one knee. Giving me her charming smile and I saw the box on her hand and opened it.

“Park Soo Young will you marry me?” I was waiting for this to happen.

“Yes, Im Jin Ah I-I will marry you.” I hugged her tightly and I gave her a kiss which it took long than the first one. She took the ring and she put it on my ring finger.

“I want to apologize to tell you this, but I’ve told Appa and the other members not to come on this day I just wanna surprise you.” And she winked at me.

“Ah!! Im Nana you are really full of surprises, ne?” I playfully punched her shoulder and she only laughed at my actions.

“When did your memories came back huh?” I asked while cocking of my eyebrow.

“Well, when you went downstairs to buy some food. I’ve told them to act as if I’m still in amnesia and couldn’t still speak.” She gave me a peck on the lips. I hugged her tightly this time.

“Welcome back Nana. I love you and I’ve miss you so much.” I sobbed this time not because I was sad but because those were tears of joy.

“I love you too..Glad to be back with you.”