Is it ok if I call you mine just for a time?
And I will be just fine
If I know that you know that I'm wanting, needing your love

                        The lyrics describes perfectly my feelings, It fit perfectly about the things I want to ask her.

Here I am, singing at a bar that my friend, Yunho, owns. I'm a college student that has great passion for music, I simply love performing in front of many people and let them know how I feel through singing. But there is always one audience that is really special, the muse of my songs, the reason that I sing, the girl I love.

I look at the left corner of the bar where she always sit. Where she will be watching me sing. She's actually easy to spot because of her long blonde hair that screams for attension, her dark brown eyes that always looks innocent and her petite body that I would always wanted to hug. She looks at me then smile, I returm her smile by winking playfully, I see her chuckle a little and that small interaction of us would always made my day. I'm Kim Jaejoong, madly inlove with my friend, Jessica Jung.

If I ask of you is it alright
If I ask you to hold me tight
through a cold tough night
'cause there may be a cloudy day inside
and I need to let you know that I might be needing your love

After I sing, I heard the audiences clapping their hands and cheering for me, I thank them and immedietly go to my FRIEND.

"Hey Bro, singing your heart again ey? Why don't you just be a singer for real?" she ask plafully

"I'm a singer, didn't I just sing just now?" I answer her sarcastically 

"No, I mean, you become a singer that appears in television, having a concert, something like that?" she looks really naive

"Mmm.. I'm satisfied being like this, it's not like my parent would agree to it"

"Yeah, what a waste, you sing really well."

"Same as you, you're a really good singer, we should have a duet sometimes" 

"Are you nuts? You know I can't sing to save my life." she laugh at her own silliness, she looks really cute that I can't help to blush

"Jess?"

"Mm?"

"Dis you know that the song I just sing is for you?" Silence begins, I tried to break the silence so I ask her a question

"Hey, so what's your answer?" I ask in a joking manner, I hope she will laugh or will just say how silly I'am but part of me was still hoping that she would say "Yes, I would be yours"

"Is it Ok if I call you Mine?"

"Answer? About what?" I was shocked at her serious expression

"About the song's question?" I'm starting to feel nervous at our serious talk

Our awkward conversation was interrupted by a phone call, I can see the happiness in her face when she saw who the caller was

"Hi my Donghae! How mas your day babe? Do you know how much I'm dying to see you again?"

And what I'm trying to say isn't really new
It's just the things that happen to me when I'm reminded of you

A simple sentence. How could it tear my heart into pieces? Me myself don't know, All I know is I the happiness I feel earlier was gone and it was replaced by the feeling of depression. How I wish she could day those words to me.

If only I could confess to her, If only she has no boyfriend, If only we have no relationship called "Friendship" that will be broken if ever my confession to her won't work. I was afraid that she would leave and avoid me when she will know my feelings for her. I don't want that to happened, I don't know how to live my life without her by my side.

"Jae, hey, what are you thinking?" When my mind came back to reality, I see Jessica staring at me like I was a freak

"Nothing, Jiji, I wonder if she(is Jaejoong's cat girl or boy xD) ate already."

"Ow.. then let's go home already so you could feed her, Donghae oppa tell me to come at a near restaurant, he said he has a surprise, isn't he sweet?" I can see how happy she is, and I can't destroy their happiness because of my selfish feelings for her.

"Alright let's go"

Like when I hear your name
or see a place that you've been
or see a picture of your grin
or pass a house that you've been in one time or another
it sets off something in me I can't explain
and I can't wait to see you again
Oh babe I love your love

I was putting my guitar into tune when I noticed that she is not in her usual place, I look around but I didn't see a blonde hair beauty with a face of an angel. I feel really sad because she would'nt get to hear the song that I was gonna sing for her. I was planning to sing "Unwell of Matchbox 20" for her. I have no strenght and enough inspiration to sing, but since the people were already awaiting for what I'm gonna sing. I started singing

I imagined her sitting at her usual place

Drinking her ice tea

She looks at me and smile at me

Then when the song is comming to end

She will cheer for me

But when I go down the stage

I see no one, and that gave me the feeling of emptiness

I look for my phone immedietly and call her, after a few rings, she answered

"Jaejoong? What did you call for?"

"Why didn't you come here at the club tonight? Did something happened?" I ask her worriedly

"I'm so sorry, but I'm leaving now, me and Donghae are migrating to America this night.I'm so sorry that I didnt tell you so soon." I can see the sincerity in her voice

"But why? Why didn't you?" I can't control the tears that keeps on flowing from my eyes

"I just can't, I'm planning to, But I feel awkward because of what you ask last night, I know your joking but it makes me feel awkward. I really sorry Jae."

"And about the question you asked me last night, ..." I held into my phone tightly, anticipating on what she will say next

"You actually can, you can call me yours, but my heart will always belong to one person, and that's Donghae oppa, you know that too right?"

I can feel the bad feeling in  my heart, it's tumping so loud that it almost jump from my heart. My heart aches so much.  But that didn't end in it

"Donghae oppa and me will be back for our wedding next month, he proposed to me last night and we're now engaged, I'm hoping for your support for us. Thank you Jae. Bye"

She hang up the phone

She will not be MINE forever

"I love you Jess, Please be mine, because I'm forever yours"

And what I'm trying to say isn't really new
It's just the things that happen to me when I'm reminded of you

THE END

I'm so sorry if it's not that good.. I'm just a new writer and this is my first fanfic. Im also sorry for my wrong grammars, English isnt my fisrt language, But by the way.. Thank you for reading :D