♥ Boomp.
A Dose of Exo
Author: joreune | Plot Description: NIL | Characters: Exo Baekhyun | Song Recommendation: NIL | Special Purpose: For a writing contest: The Sky Is The Limit Round 2 Inspired by prompts #1, #2, #5 | Author's Note: Do you think this can make you Baekhyun biased? Hahaha. Honestly I like this a lot :D (But sadly I failed to even get to the second subround lol)
Baekhyun buttoned his white shirt and checked himself in the mirror.
We all do things we desperately wish we can undo.
His shirt was so white, that it felt like as if it didn't wanted to be exposed to anyone.
Those regrets just becomes a part of who we are, along with everything else.
He then picked up his black blazer on the chair beside him and wore it over his white shirt.
Baekhyun picked up his wallet and phone from his table before leaving exo's dormitory.
To spend time trying to change that, well, it's like chasing clouds.
* * *
It has been months since Baekhyun last stepped foot into her apartment. Though Baekhyun felt greeted and welcomed by this familiarity of the image of the apartment's door, there was something that sent chills down him.
Baekhyun locked the door behind him and kept his set of keys in his pocket. He switched the lights on looked around. The house looked like as if it had been abandoned; as if the other owner left too after Baekhyun's disappearance. Not a single furniture was in sight, other than the single couch that was left in the middle of the empty space.
Baekhyun went into the kitchen to check if there was still anything. The kitchen was even more empty than the living room. It had completely nothing. He then decided to go find her in her room.
She was there, sitting on the floor keeping books into a big, black garbage bag. Most of the furniture were still in her room, but the important ones like her cupboards and bed were gone.
Baekhyun went closer to her and hugged her from behind, placing both of his hands on her arms.
He gently kissed her neck as he said, "why didn't you greet me? And what are you doing to your home?"
Baekhyun then slid his hands around her waist, pulling her completely into his embrace. He continued kissing her and even her slightly.
"You're not going to reply me?"
She just went on keeping books after books into the plastic bag, not caring about her boyfriend whom she had been longing for a long time.
He then noticed that the books were actually photo albums. Her being an orphan, didn't had much photographs to keep, and most of the photographs she had were taken with Baekhyun.
"Are you moving house without telling me?"
But once again she didn't give him a reply.
He was really annoyed, for the girl he loved so much was ignoring him.
He kept it in and asked, "are you alright?"
She didn't even turn around to look at him.
Baekhyun obviously knew something wasn't right. Was she angry that he had neglected her for so long?
He knew it was his fault, so he went in front of her and tried to communicate with her once again.
"I'm sorry my dear," Baekhyun said as he knelt down in front of her and grabbed her hand, "I didn't mean to leave you alone for so long. I missed you a lot too. So here I am, back by your side. Away from work, and public's eye. I'm yours once more."
She shook Baekhyun's hands off and stormed out of her room without taking anything with her. She slammed the door shut behind her, leaving Baekhyun hanging there alone in her room. Baekhyun assumed that she just needed sometime to cool. He got up from the ground and went to her study table.
On the table, he saw a diary, a dairy that they started together to know about each other's life when they don't meet.
Baekhyun sat down on her chair and flipped the book opened. The diary had belonged to her for so long that he couldn't even remember the last time he wrote an entry. She updated the book constantly, filling it up with her daily life. He didn't wanted to read into detail, until he saw a page written in black ink. The words were so bold that he couldn't help but to stop and see the message it carried.
16 May 2013
Why can't they just leave me alone? It's not like as if I took their parent's life. I didn't even get in their way. Why can't I be accepted like everyone else? Am I really that unwanted?
The entry was so short, but it made Baekhyun start to think about her. What exactly was bothering her? He flipped to the earlier entries to check.
16 December 2012
I really didn't know you're like that! Baekhyun, next time please warn me before you start to get intimate with me. You do not just randomly crawl up my bed with I'm about to sleep and give the excuse that you're only free at late night. And did you know that you are not suppose to touch girls all over? I could sue you. Be thankful I didn't.
25 December 2012
Baeky~ Thanks for the Christmas present, I love it! ^^ I'll definitely use it. But I really wished you could have left an entry before you left. I really miss your name being in this book. You could have at least taken it away and fill it up some other day.
13 January 2013
I was at Kyungsoo and Jongin's birthday celebration too, did you spot me? Kekeke. I was hiding behind a gigantic banner which writes "kaisoo", so it was hard to spot me. I have something important to tell you. So important that I can't just text you about it. I hope you'll be free soon...
15 February 2013
How is my relationship with Baekhyun affecting you all?! I don't mind being alienated but can you all stop aiming things at me? It really hurts! Not to mention, I don't want to lose it like this...
Baekhyun then paused.
"She was," he thought, "being bullied in school? And lose what?"
20 February 2013
After much consideration, I've decided to abort the baby. Sorry Baekhyun, for not discussing with you or even telling you that I was pregnant with your kid. Other than the fact that I'm still a student, you're a member of some famous group, how can you be a father now? We're still young, I think aborting it would be the best choice. I do hope you'll understand.
1 March 2013
I wonder, what gender is the kid I've killed? Will he or she look more like me or you? Is the kid able to play the piano as nice as you? Will he/she have small eyes like you and like to use eyeliner a lot? Hahaha. Why am I even thinking so much.
"She was pregnant?!"
2 March 2013
I just saw some fancams of smtown. So now you and Taeyeon have a performance together? Well, it's not that I don't like Taeyeon, but everyone ships byuntae. Being your girlfriend, I don't like it...
29 March 2013
Stop it with the super glue! Do you guys seriously think sticking my stationeries on the table is funny? I have to buy umpteen new stationeries every month. And today you guys even squeezed glue into my pencil case! That's too much. That was my Christmas present.
Baekhyun then skipped all the way to May.
6 May 2013
Happy birthday my Baeky~ I saw some of the fan taken photos of your birthday party the day before! I realised how much I miss you. And I also realised how little we're speaking now. You're all I have, did you know? You saved me from that orphanage and helped me rented a place to stay. Since then, I've already decided to rely on you forever. Hahaha. Anyways, I've texted you your birthday wishes so I won't include it.
17 May 2013
Fancams aren't helping much with my feels. Since most is about byuntae.
25 May 2013
Sometimes I think the human heart is just a simple shelf. There's only so much you can pile onto it before something falls off an edge and you're left to pick up the pieces.
And I think, my shelf had already collapsed.
27 May 2013
Alright, most furniture are out of the house. Other than the couch. There isn't any space in the orphanage for that. Who wants that couch anyways? We've done so many dirty things on it.
31 May 2013
Baekhyun, I don't know when will you be reading this, but this will be my last entry. I'm leaving to somewhere far. I really can't take all the bullying, byuntae moments, and your on and off concerns. I know you're busy, so I never forced you, but sometimes I miss you so badly that I don't know what do to. Why not let's just end it all? You shall move on with your own life, and just forget about us. It shouldn't be too hard since you don't see me everyday.
Our relationship makes me think, have you ever really liked me?
To bad I won't know the answer. Our kid is looking for it's parents now, it's time one of us went to look for it. Goodbye.
One more thing, when I die, don't come near my body, because my hand might not be able to wipe your tears anymore.
It then suddenly struck Baekhyun that she was about to end her life. He then dashed out of the room, and out of her apartment. Where could she be?
Baekhyun went to the top floor and then climbed the stairs to the top of the building.
Boomp.
What was that sound? Baekhyun took slow and cautious steps towards to the edge, as if he might fall of the building. He closed his eyes and wished that it wasn't what he thought it was. He then looked down and saw a body on the first floor. It didn't require much thinking to know who was it.
Baekhyun sat down on the floor and leaned against the ledge she most probably jumped off from. He wept terribly, and tried to contain his screams by biting on his own arm. After a while, he could no longer keep it in. He started screaming at the top of his voice, screams that he thought might have pierced through the skies to her wherever she was. Only it didn't.
"You asked if I truly liked you," Baekhyun thought, "why didn't you stay to hear my answer?"
* * *
Baekhyun buttoned his white shirt and checked himself in the mirror.
His shirt was so white, that it felt like as if it didn't wanted to be exposed to anyone.
He then picked up his black blazer on the chair beside him and wore it over his white shirt.
Baekhyun picked up his wallet and phone from his table before leaving exo's dormitory.
"Ready to leave?"
Baekhyun looked at Lay and nodded. Lay didn't say it but he was concerned about Baekhyun. He could tell that Baekhyun wasn't alright on the inside.
Reaching the funeral, Baekhyun's slightest smile faded. Exo tried to block Baekhyun from the reporters that were desperately taking photos of Baekhyun, but Baekhyun didn't even cared about them.
Some of her classmates who bullied her were there too, feeling apologetic that they drove a girl to a corner, and ended it all by dying. Her neighbours and friends at the orphanage came too, to see her off for the last time.
Baekhyun stood in front of her. He looked her photograph and said, "idiot. You didn't wait for my reply. Weren't you wanting to know how I felt about you?"
Of course the photograph didn't reply him, and just portrayed the smile that she used to give him every time he arrives at her house.
"I didn't just liked you, I loved you," Baekhyun said, "and I hate you now. For leaving me. For abandoning our future."
Chanyeol went over to Baekhyun's side and held him by the shoulders.
"It's alright," Chanyeol said, "maybe God just wanted her up there."
Baekhyun couldn't help but to cry again. God has so many girls up there, why would He want his? And who would want her more than Baekhyun does?
Baekhyun then went on talking to her, "I'm really starting to regret not treating you better. But you used to tell me everyone do things they desperately wish can undo. And the regrets just becomes a part of us, along with everything else. To spend time trying to change that is like chasing clouds."
"I'll try to pick myself up from here and move on," Baekhyun continued after a long pause, "I won't let you see me stay upset for too long."
Chanyeol then squeezed Baekhyun's shoulders.
Another teardrop then rolled down Baekhyun's cheek, but it didn't reach his chin. A gentle touch wiped it off his face. Knowing who it was, Baekhyun smiled slightly.
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