REPLY
REPLY Yoon Jae
‘’Do you like someone right now?’’ Yoon Jae asks me. I look at him.
‘’They asks that question?’’
‘’Yes, they do.’’ He smiles. ‘’Do you like someone?’’
Do I like someone? Ow, right. It’s simple, brother. It’s somebody who is smart and really good-looking. Someone who think that I can do anything I want, because I’m clever. Someone who think that we can have anything we want. Anyone we want…
‘’Yes.’’ I reply. It was a while ago, you know? I like this person, because this one is by my side. And will be forever. I want to make this person to be mine, but I’m shy. Too shy to be like this.
‘’Is it someone I know?’’ he looks at me with curiosity in his eyes.
Do you want to know this person? This person is just like me. Am I not enough?
I’m thinkin’ that I want to be only for you. Is it okay to be here? I think about my reply. Can I say the truth?
‘’Yes.’’ I finally say. I don’t know why, but he’s really surprised.
Why is he looking at me like that?
What is he thinking?
Okay, let’s say it, Yoon Jae.
‘’Is it Sung Shi Won?’’ he asks really seriously.
I feel like idiot.
Why? WHY? Why her?
I’m disappointed. I’m really, really disappointed, because I thought that I can make a confession, but I can’t. I just can’t do it.
‘’I should take a shower.’’ I stand up and take my towel.
‘’Look, wait’’ he also stands up and comes at me.
What is goin’ on?
‘’You must be seriously!’’ he says and takes my hand.
Why is he doing it to me? Am I a bad boy? Am I a bad mate? Friend? Why is he teasing me? I just wanna run away, right now. I wanna run away, because if I won’t do this I will blush.
He looks into my eyes and makes my soul melts.
‘’It’s you.’’ I say. He looks at me and smiles.
‘’Idiot, tell me the truth.’’ He say without thinking.
I’m sad. I’M SAD, YOU IDIOT, DON’T YOU SEE?
‘’Joon Hee-yah, is it true?’’
I nod. It’s true and I can’t do anything. Because I want it, because I’m masochist. My forbidden love is here but I can’t have it. Where is my love?
‘’It’s true. What should I do?’’ I say. I’m helpless, because I can’t lie to myself.
‘’What can I do?’’ he’s thinking loudly. ‘’I think that I have to take responsibility.’’
WHAT? So many years, months, hours with uncertainty and now he says that he have to take responsibility? It’s unbelievable.
‘’I should take a shower.’’ I say quiet and turn back to the door. He stops me and turns me back.
‘’I’m not kidding, Joon Hee. I want to take responsibility.’’ he says and quickly kiss my lips. My own lips. Is it a dream?
‘’Let’s take a shower together, okay.’’ He smiles. I can’t believe.
This. Idiot. Is. Mine.
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