.....We came back to the place and chanyeol prepared the breakfast and by preparing i mean he asked his elder brother to drop by and bring the breakfast, he is really 'something' oh well we start having breakfast and as usual chanyeol started feeding me by the way we were having american style breakfast we had pancakes,toast and no well no coffee none of us are a fan of coffee so we were having milk bubble tea.We finished our breakfast and i broke the silence which was quite strange cuz chanyeol never stays quite he's always talking,telling jokes and giving his famous clapping laugh  "so..is there still something after breakfast huh?" i asked and smiled towards him "umm not really" he said expressionless 'unlike himself' playing with his fingers  "channie are you okay?" i asked putting my hand on his shoulder while he just stood up and so did I "well just that.....you didnt gave me a morning kiss" he should be pouting but he wasnt, he tried to say that with emotions but it didnt convinced me  "huh? is this really the reason you are like that" i asked him not really convinced by his words "well..." he stopped what he was going to say when i cupped his face and softly kissed on his cheek he then smiled  "is it okay now?" i asked pouting a bit while he shook his head and leaned closer kissing me softly on the lips "it's better now" he said and hugged me and well..... not letting go "eunji-ya you know how much i love you right?" he asked breaking the silence still hugging me while i nodded "eunji-ya.." he sighed deeply and i can tell that something is bothering him  "channie what's wrong you can tell me.Don't stress yourself" i said breaking the hug and he sighed again "I..I'm_" he sighed again and rubbed his face with frustration facing the other way i walked up to putting my hand on his shoulder to make him face me,he's looking down on the ground and i sighed this time.I place my hand on his cheek and kissed on the other cheek "what's wrong yeolie?" i asked with concern, he looked up meeting my eyes and held onto my shoulders,sighing once more before he speaks "Let's break-up!" he said is one-breath making me look at him with disbelief "huh?" i blinked at him not wanting to believe  what he just said "let's split up.....i-i'm" he stopped as a tear rolled down from his cheek, my eyes are widened now i've never seen him crying "chan_" he cut me off by hugging me, griping on me tightly "mianhaeyo eunji-ya" he said holding onto his tears but failed  "yeollie~don't cry" i said starting the waterworks as a tear fell from my eyes "let me...let me cry just today..let me be like this...I-" he stoppedd on his words and started crying like really, now hicccuping because of crying so much "i'm a loser eunji cuz i'm letting you go..cuz i'm leaving you shamelessly for my stupid dreams" i broke the hug hearing these words from him and shook my head  "aniya chanyeol-a you are not a loser, you are the sweetest person i've ever known and..and just because you are letting me go cuz of your dreams doesnt make you shameless...i know you how much you chased you dreams i...i love you more than anything chanyeol and i respect your decision" i manage to say this all in between my tears that are flowing uncontrolable and he once again hugged me, crying more loudly now i tried to calm him down by griping on him tightly but it just that feeling.......hurts "saranghae eunji-ya" he snifed "i love you so much that i was going to give up on my dreams b-but.....it's for my family,they..they" he just can't even speak bcause of his pain "i understand you channie i love you so much..but dont dont give up you wanted to be an idol really badly and now that it's happening you dont have to give up beacuse of me" i said rubbing his back  "b-but it's so hard..i-i can't leave you eunji, it's..it's like i'm ripping my heart and throwing it away" these words these words just made me cry even more "channie_" he broke the hug but still holding me he then wiped my tears with his thumbs and planted his lips on mine while i held him more closer and tighter...a tear rolled down from my cheek and he wiped it using his thumb not breaking the kiss "I love you eunji-ya...i'm really sorry" he said in-between the kiss and i didnt utter a word i just didnt want to break the kiss... i wanted him to kiss me longer longer than ever, i wanted him to hug me so tight that i can't breath and die in his arms. i dont want to leave his embrace even though i have to.He broke the kiss and lift up my face, his eyes are red and swollen because he've been crying from past half an hour, Guilt has taken over him as he mouthd me 'i'm sorry' and without any word i wrap my arms around his neck and hugged him again he also wrapped his arms ar