As Dongho pushed me towards the wall, both his palms rested onto the wall so that I was inbetween his arms, faced to face. As I looked up, his lips were just above mine and his warm breath that sounded so tired had made my heart  skip beats.
As he leaned closer, he whispered, "Why are you doing this to me? Wae?"
I wanted to say something, I wanted to tell him everything, but words couldn't escape my mouth. I was for the very first time...speechless.

"Don't you know...?" He than added as his voice spoke warmly.

I was suddeny confused. What does he mean by that? What is he talking about? Without realising, tears fell from my cheek, dripping one by one onto his hand.  "Oppa.." I added. I couldn't take this anymore. I wanted to yell, I wanted to say... I Love You!

But instead, my cowardness took over me. I pushed his hands away and ran as fast as I could. I didn't even look back to see his reaction...I just ran, ran like it was the end of the world.

 

The next day of of school, I didn't see him, not even a trace of his dark black hair or his warm bright smile.

"Ji Eun! Did you go meet Dongho last night? He told me he had to meet with you for a while before it was too late." It was Kevin, oppa's best friend. But how did he know about this, I thought to myself.

"What do you mean by before it's too late?" I was so confused. What did he mean by that? Had something happened?

"Ohh, did he not tell you? He's leaving to Japan today." My heart had a little discomfort, I was hoping it wasn't something big or serious.

"Why?" I siad softly, hoping that Kevin would tell me the deatails.

"What do you mean by why? Didn't he tell you last night that he will be leaving to Japan to stay there forever? His family will be moving there."

My heart suddenly stopped, it was that same feeling when I had almost lost him...forever...

 

**phone rings**

 

"Ohh, Ji Eun, I'll talk to you later, I have to answer this call." "See you later tho!" He said happily smiling as he walked away. 

As Kevin walked further and further away from me, my eyes was suddenly filled with tears. Why hadn't I known that? Why did I make an assumption last night? Why did I run, run like it was the end of the world?

That night as I laid down on my bed, I couldn't stop thinking of him.

 

School was harder than ever, life was the same too. It was as though I had lost him forever, that feeling that made my tears fall everytime I thought of him. It felt so empty, my heart was empty. 

"Yaa, Ji Eun" Kevin called out. "Don't look so down, someone wants to talk to you."  
I looked up from my cup of coffee and tried to make sense of what he was talking about. He passed me his phone "Here" with a slight pause and continued his sentence "Let's go Ga Eun. She needs privacy."

"Oppa! Why are we leaving Ji Eun here all alone.? Oppa !~?"
He didn't answer and instead, grabbed her hand and pulled her out of her seat.

As both of them left, I was alone with a phonecall to answer.

"Yeoboseyo(Hello?)?" I said softly

"Annyong... Junnie-yaa" A voice so reconizable. That low soft voice. That voice. The only voice that called me Junnie.
"How are you? Are you well?" He said again, hoping that I would answer...
"Oppa..."
"Junnie-ya", he replied with a soft tone.
"Oppa..." "...Saranghae" I said sadly and hung up. 

I didn't even know why I said that. But at least I know..it was the end. I knew it was the end. He had called me to tell me he had someone else. Oppa...my first and last love. Dongho, Shin Dongho oppa. I repeated his name, hoping that I will not remember him.

 

-5 years later-

 

"Ji Eun, can you please go get the medication for me please. Its downstairs"
I just smiled and nodded. With my white suite on, I walked towards the lift and pressed the button. I got into the lift and stood there for my stop to get out. 

"Annyonghaseyo!" I suddenly realised there was a man standing behind me. I turned and smiled.

As I froze there, he said..."Wae, Why did you do this to me Junnie-ya? Did you know how hurt I have been for the last five years of my life..."

I turned to see his face. It was him, with that exact smile that had always made my heart beat so fast. It was him, it really was him,handsomer than ever...

 

 

TO BE CONTINUED...