Hi to everyone! My name is Jinhye, Park Jinhye.
Ever since I was seven years old, I kept on hearing this little voices inside my room. Sometimes, even in our livingroom. I remember that sometimes, I'll come to my mom's room and tell her that "she's" there. Sometimes, mom keeps on asking me how the little girl looks like, but I only answered her the same answers from before. "I can't see her, but she talks to me though..."

My mom went to visit my school, back when I was eight years old. She talked to my adviser and asked if I'm having this weird attitudes in school. My adviser told mom that I wasn't doing weird in school. So it means that, it's just happening whenever I'm home or I'm inside my room. Mom even brought me to psychiatrist to assure her that I'm not an autistic or I'm not crazy.

As the results came out, it's all the same. I'm not crazy. I'm not an autistic person. Maybe an imaginary friend. Because mom told me that I can't even see her, so she told me that maybe... just maybe. I'm imagining things. Maybe I'll get used to it? Sometimes, I'll just run from my room going downstairs to tell my mom everything. She'll comfort me until I fall asleep on her arms.

Starting when I was nine years old, mom decided to leave our old house and go to South Korea. Well, we stayed in Los Ageles in the late 90's. By 3 pm in the afternoon, mom started packing her luggages and went to the  to shop for new clothes. I was left in the house with my older cousin, Georgina. We were so close. We play my dolls whenever she visits home. But right now, she's busy doing her thesis for college. Yup! She's already in college.

Georgina unnie prepared sliced fruits for me before facing her laptop to do her thesis. She placed it on the table in the living room and told me to eat it for my 'merienda'. She left me watching the television and went to the coffee table to continue her work. I was watching Phineas and Ferb by that time, when I felt the couch sank a little. Looking to my left, I saw nothing. But, the couch left sank. As if someone was sitting beside me.

I ignored it. But as minutes passes, I felt someone getting nearer to me. I looked back to my left and saw the couch, still on a sanking mode. But it almost occupied the whole couch where I was sitting. Then I felt someone's head on my lap. I saw my skirt moving. Then I thought, that the girl's head was laying on my lap. I tried not to be scared and just let her lay there.

After an hour of that feeling, I decided to go upstairs and start packing my bags because we're leaving by tomorrow morning. I pulled out my luggages and opened my closet to get my clothes. Mom went inside my room and gave me the shopping bags, inside was my new clothes, shoes and sandals, for me to bring to South Korea.

While folding my clothes, I noticed a 1/4 sheet of paper on the floor, beside my bed. At first, I hesitated if I'll pick it up. But as a kid, curiousity hits me so I picked it up. I flipped it on the front and saw some writings on there. A question that makes me a little sad. "Are you going on a vacation? 'Cause you're packing your clothes and stuffs..." By that time, I knew it was the girl.

I crumpled the paper and threw it on my trash can. I was thinking by that time, I knew she's somewhere here in my room, as I saw my bed blanket uncovering my bed. Then, another 1/4 sheet of paper was placed on my bed. With a pink ink, used for writing, I saw my pink ballpen scattered on my side table. The question was "Why aren't you answering me?"

Shudders ran down from my spine so I decided to answer the little girl. At first, there were no words that's coming out of my throat, then I found the way for it. I sighed and sat down on the edge of my bed and started talking. "Hey little girl. I know even if I can't see you, you're somewhere here inside my room. Yes, I'm leaving, but not for a vacation. I'll be moving back to my real hometown." That's it. It's answered.

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As I was sleeping by that night, I heard her voice talking. "Momma, are you mad at me? Can I come and sleep on your bed?" Being sick of the situation, I moved over. To my surprise, the sheets moved and shifted to a shape of girl who was big enough to be... maybe 3. That's when I panicked, I bolted up and screamed while running to my mom's room.

As the next day came, being a nine year old girl, I stood up lazily from my mom's bed and headed towards my door. I went inside and grabbed my clothes and towel. I took a ten minute shower and started preparing to leave. The happenings from last night visited my memories and I started rolling my eyes from left to right, checking if the little girl is there.

Nope. She is not there. After putting on my scarf, I scan my room, who's now turning to be my old and past room. "Goodbye.." I said and closed the door behind. I dragged my luggages downstairs and waited for my mom and cousin, who are getting ready ready to leave. I decided to watch cartoon first as we still have two hours and thirty minutes left before our flight to Seoul.

I watched Spongebob Squarepants that time. I saw my cousin, Georgina. She went out of her room and proceeded in the kitchen after seeing me. After a good two minutes, she came back with a bowl of cereal. She gave it to me and motioned to eat first before leaving. I got the spoon and shoved one full of it inside my mouth. I like chocolate cereals a lot!

"So, is my dongsaeng excited to leave the country?" She asked me while her eyes were on the television. "A little. I'll be staying in a new environment." She nodded and leaned her back against the couch, "Do you know how to speak in Korean?" I nodded and continued with my breakfast. When the show ended, I turned off the television and by that time, mom came out of her room.

Georgina unnie helped us with our luggages and put it on the trunk of our car. Mom turned around and glanced back on our 'now' old house. She showed a smile and went to the driver's seat beside Georgina unnie. I glanced back to our house too and tried to remember the memories that happened in here. I looked up to the window of my room and saw a 'Goodbye' word that's written on it.

I smiled a little and turned around. I went inside my mom's car... then she stareted the engine and drove off to the airport. I took out my diary and wrote there about today:


Dear Diary,

                    I'm off to South Korea. Well, not yet. Mom's still driving to airport. I must say that I'm a little too nervous. I'll be coming back to my hometown and I don't know a lot of people there. Mom thought me how to speak in Korean but I'm thinking how will I talk or communicate with them if nervousness is eating me. At first I thought Georgina unnie will be coming... but she has her college life here in Los Angeles, so we'll be leaving her behind. I kept on thinking, what is the little girl doing by now? Is she playing my dolls? Or she's sad because we left? Why bother? But the most unexpected thing was last night. She called me 'momma'. I don't know why. Maybe she resembles me as her mom. But, I'm too young to be a mom...
                    We still have one hour before our flight. It's a bit of traffic and I hate it. The sun shows its heat already. I could feel it through the tainted windows. It's heating on me right now. I have stop writing and close you. We'll be arriving in the airport soon.
                    I don't know if I'm excited...

                                                                                                                                                                                                                - Jinhye :)



I closed my diary and put it on my backpack. I looked outside the window and saw the park where Georgina unnie and I use to play back when I was four years old. I used to sit on the swing and Georgina unnie will push it. I enjoyed those times. But how about the little girl? She's always talking to me whenever the house is silent or I'm alone inside my room.

We arrived in the airport. Within thirty minutes, we'll be flying over to South Korea. The guards checked our tickets and passports so we could enter. Georgina unnie pulled mom's luggages and I pulled mine. We sat on the waiting are, while mom bought coffee for her and Georgina and hot chocolate for me.

After that thirty minutes, I picked up my backpack and got our luggage. Mom came over and gave our drinks. I was staring in the mid-air, when we heard the staff's voice. "Flight to South Korea is now boarding." It's time for us to go.


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