The words from that sweet you, place me in the words from the dead you

Those biting words are really bitter, don’t speaks of them anymore

Unable to hate yet unable to love, ultimately all that can be done is to run from those words, please don’t speak of them anymore

Unable to swallow these words, such fiery and yet poisonous words coming from you…

- Bittersweet -

It’s not like I don’t know what you really want

It’s not like I don’t know how long you’ve been waiting for the certainty

I know…you’ve been waiting for thousands of days

It’s not like I don’t know how hurt you are

It’s not like that…

I just don’t know what to say

Don’t know what to do

Don’t even know where I’m standing at right now

I don’t have that courage to take a chance for our love

No…not yet…

Never want to see your tears drop…not even for once…

But it’s always end up with a river of tears from you...

Never want to hurt you…not even for a single second…

But what happened is I’m hurting you for million times...

I hate myself for making you cry

I hate myself for making you wait this long

I hate myself for not making any decision yet

You know how hard it is for me

You know…

This is not only about you and me

This isn’t….

You know how much I suffering...

How much I suffering because I can’t be with you

Can’t touch you…

Can’t share the laugh with you

You asked me NOW…but you know exactly that I’m not going to make it now…

Sorry baby…

Sorry…

Sorry…

Sorry…

Sorry…

Sorry...

Sorry...

Sorry…

I know how tired you are…

So do I…

Then let me be selfish this time…

Let me be the one who letting you go...

I’m the one who hurting both of us…

I’m the one who hurting you…

Even more… I’m hurting my own self by letting you go…

I just can’t stand myself to see you leave me...

I know you are stronger than me…

Much stronger than me…

You have bunch of friends with…

Or… just pretend that you have all of your friends with you

I have no one…I have nothing…

All I have is you…

And now…I have to let you go…

Letting you go means letting my happiness go

Letting you go means letting myself die little by little

You are my life…

Only with you here will I be able to live

Without you I am just as if I have lost a life

Unable to move forward, unable to move backward

 

You might see me with someone else…

But I want you to know this…

Wherever I go….I’m going back to you… my home….Cho kyuhyun….

My heart is always belong to you…

How I wish….it won’t be late then

The time when I’m going home…

How I wish for that…

And again let me be selfish for this…..Hoping that you’re waiting for me…

Who knows what the future holds for everyone. Just try to be happy and loves because you want to love, do not sacrifice your life to make others happy or want others to sacrifice their loves to make you happy because that is not love…

- Quotation -

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I thought all of the mellow songs from 6th jib are  "mellow". Had a bad  feeling...something really happened between our wonkyu. And I just end up here. Haha....I don't even know what i'm writing about.  Well...enjoy your day everyone!! Hope no more angst for our  wonkyu!