I'm really in love with my best friend and he doesn't know about this he is always with his girlfriend but he doesn't know taht her girlfriend is cheating in him 

No matter what i want to tell him about this i really can't he is just going to say that i'm jealous to his girlfriend that he have a girlfriend and i don't have any boyfriend 

But for me i feel that he is my boyfriend.

Why ?

It was valentines day when we both go out and bought some ice cream there was a couple promo and we join on it we have a picture together i always dream about him.

I want to tell him that i really like him and not his friend lay he always paired me up to lay i want to throw him some rocks to know how much i am hurt when i am seeing him with his girlfriend 

But then i dream about him that i am going to be his wife 

But i know its too late i have a tumor 

And my family only knows about this ...