Losing Everyone I Love

-A(nother) one-shot by miyounglim12

 

My life was dull, everyone annoyed me, teachers bored me and no one dared to talk to me.

Maybe it was because I was cold and y to everyone.

Not like I care about them. I don’t care about anything.

I have no reason to live to be honest.

I lost everything.

Sometimes, I thought about suicide. But my best friend, Kai, would always talk me out of it.

Everyday, I got up, changed and dragged myself to school.

Every time I walk down hallway, everyone around me would suddenly shut their traps and started whispering stuff about me.

“What’s with her?”

“Can’t she lighten up a bit?”

“She’s not even serious about anything, just drags her sorry soul here and stare into space.”

“Doesn’t she have a life?”

But those words always came from this group of girls.

Or as I liked to call them, Snickers.

Because that was what they did after they finished whispering—a bit too loud—stuff about me.
One day, I had it. I couldn’t stand it anymore.

I whipped around and punched the ringleader, Jaena, in the nose. The impact made her fall back against the lockers.

Everyone gasped. I was known as the cold one, the one who doesn’t care about anything. But then, I punched the school’s so-called queen.

“WHAT WAS THAT FOR?” she shrieked clutching her bleeding nose.

“You don’t know anything,” I said quietly. “You don’t know what happened. You don’t know me. JUST STOP TALKING ABOUT ME LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING!” My voice rose until a shout at the last sentence.

Everyone was silent. I glared at them and trudged to class.

 

During lunch, I climbed up the roof as usual. It was quiet and helped me clear my mind.

I laid down on the concrete surface staring up into the clear blue sky.

“How is it up here?” a voice asked.

Surprised to find another person up here, as I was usually alone, I shot up. “Who are you?” I blurted out.

But after I took a good look, I realized he was in my class.

“Minhyuk,” he said. “Lee Minhyuk.” He smiled.

Was this some kind of sick joke? I stared at him with a scowl.

“What are you doing here? No one in the school would want to be seen with a cold soul,” I said sarcastically.

He chuckled.

“I think you’re quite interesting.”

I scoffed. “I’m a loner. A cold-hearted person who doesn’t care about anything.”

He sat up. “Why?”

“Wouldn’t you like to know?” I started to walk away.

He grabbed my arm. “Wait.”

“What?” I glared at him.

“Do you want to… hang out?” He scratched the back of his neck.

“No.” I pulled my arm away and walked away.

Was this some kind of sick joke?

“Wait!”

I ignored him and walked down the stairs.

“What’s your name?” he called out.

I stopped walking down. Right, I did not tell him. “Why do you care?”

I rolled my eyes and continued making my way down.

Sure, the school’s popular guy wanted to hang out with me.

Nice. Real nice.

 

I walked to my apartment where I lived alone. I threw my school bag on the couch. I picked up my phone. Might as well call my friend.

“You,” I said as soon as he picked up.

“What,” he coldly replied.

We get along so well.

“I had a wonderful day.”

“Me too.”

“Cool.”

“How are you?”

“I punched Jaena in the face today. How about you?”

“She deserved it. That . Oh, I’m fine.”

“Why did you move to America? You could’ve seen me wreck her lovely nose.”

“Blame my parents.”

I stayed quiet. He. Did. Not. Just. Say. That.

“DAMN IT! SORRY I DIDN’T MEAN TO!”

“It’s okay,” I said softly.

“I’M SUCH A FREAKING IDIOT. OKAY, PEOPLE ARE STARING AT ME.”

“Serves you right.”

“OH MY GOSH, SORRY HYUNJI SORRY!”

“OKAY! OKAY! SHUT UP, KAI.”

“Okay. Forgive me?”

“Yes, yes, yes.”

I heard a muffled, ”KAI, WHO YOU TALKING TO? THE OTHERS ARE WAITING.”

“MY FRIEND FROM KOREA, SEHUN,” he shouted, not bothering to even cover his mouthpiece.

“DO YOU WANT ME TO GO DEAF OR WHAT?” I shouted.

“Oops. Sorry! Okay, call you back later. Bye, Hyunji.”

“Bye, Kai.” Then, I hung up. I threw my phone on the couch and went into my room.

I buried my face in my pillow.

Kai was the only person that understands me because he knew what happened.

Unlike, Jaena and Minhyuk.

Why was I even thinking about Minhyuk? I pushed that thought away.

Before I knew it, I drifted off to sleep.

 

1 month later… [A/N: No, she didn’t sleep for 1 month.]

 

Everything was normal at school. People still hated me, Jaena and Snickers still hated me even more.

Except for the fact that maybe Minhyuk and I were on good terms.

I found out that he wasn’t playing some sick joke. Which means I wasn’t cold to him and he knew my name.

We actually spoke. We hung out on the roof…

Anyway, I thought he might actually like me.

And I thought I liked him back.

What’s wrong with me?

We were in the library studying for our exams when suddenly he said, “Hyunji.”

“What?” I turned to look at him.

Oh wow, he’s good looking. I stared at his beautiful features.

“Hyunji, you’re spacing out again.”

“Hm? Oh, sorry! What were you saying?”

“Do you want to go with me to prom?” He smiled.

Sorry what? And that smile…

“Um… What?” I asked.

“I asked you if you’d go with me to the prom?”

My stomach did somersaults. Lee Minhyuk asked me to prom.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. YES!

But instead:

 “Minhyuk… Give me time to think about it… I’ll tell you when our exams end next week.”

His face fell. “Oh. Alright.” Then he got up and walked away.

What the heck brain?

 

When I got home, my phone immediately rang.

“Hello?” I said.

“HYUNJI. HYUNJI. HYUNJI!”

“KAI. CHILL! WHAT IS IT?”

“I’m coming to Korea next week.”

“Are you serious?”

“Yeah, Flight G432!”

“Oh my gosh. When are you arriving?”

“Wednesday, in the morning.”

“Should I pick you up?”

“It’s okay.”

“Anything else?”

“Nope. Sehun is calling me… Okay, bye Hyunji. See you next week!”

“Bye.”

 

The next week…

 

By Wednesday, I was done with all my exams.

After school, I decided to tell Minhyuk my answer, which is yes.

I told him to meet me in the arts room. I opened the door.

My heart dropped to the ground.

He was kissing Jaena.

JAENA.

His back was facing me, so he didn’t realize I was there.

But Jaena did. She pulled away.

“Hello, Hyunji,” she said, smirking.

Minhyuk turned around. His eyes widened.

“Hyunji…” he started.

“I don’t want to hear it,” I whispered hoarsely. “It was a sick joke. You don’t even like me. You were going to take me then you’ll embarrass me right?”

Tears started forming in my eyes and I don’t know why.

“Hyunji, listen. I—“

“Minhyuk, she doesn’t want to hear it,” Jaena said, cutting him off.

“I thought you weren’t part of them,” I said.

“I WASN’T!” he shouted.

I turned around and ran down the hallway.

“HYUNJI WAIT!” he called out.

I ignored him.

He was only playing around with my heart. He liked Jaena. Not me.

I finally arrived at my apartment and I threw myself on the bed.

I buried my face in the pillow and cried.

After a few hours, I decided to call up Kai. He’ll understand.

I pressed my phone against my ear.

No answer.

I redialed.

Still no answer.

Kai always answers his phone even in the middle of class…

So, I texted him.

 

Hyunji: Why aren’t you answering your phone? I need to talk to you :<

 

After about an hour, he still had not replied me.

 

Hyunji: Where are you? Kai, I need to talk to you :/

 

I sighed in frustration. I the television. I flipped through channels in boredom.

“The new—“

“Got—“

“And Denmark scored—“

“Actress and singer—“

“Flight G432—“

“Korea versus—“

I switched back to the last channel. It was a news channel.

“Apparently, Flight G432, from New York to Seoul, had crashed halfway through the flight because of engine failure. Those who has family or friends in the flight, sorry for the loss,” said the reporter solemnly.

I stared at the television.

Crashed. Flight G432. Kai’s flight crashed.

“No. No. No, it can’t be true,” I said to myself. “NO!”

I stared at the television again. I threw the remote at the screen.

I dropped to the floor on the knees. I covered my face with my hand and cried.

I really lost everyone. Everyone I truly loved.

I look out my window. It was raining.  I stood up.

Why should I even live?

I lost everyone I love. I have no reason to live anymore.

 

I looked down. The street was empty. No one could stop me.

My wet hair plastered against my face.

I took a step forward on the slick concrete. “Bye.”

I took another step forward.

One more step and I won’t have to live in misery.

I took one step forward. No more ground after my last step.

I closed my eyes and the rain pattered on my face.

One more step.

As soon as my foot left solid ground, someone grabbed my wrist.

“LET ME GO!” I screamed.

In the heavy rain, I made out a figure of a male.

“No. Hyunji. I won’t let you,” he said.

That voice. Minhyuk.

“Let me go. I lost everything. I don’t want to live anymore,” I said in a softer tone. I pulled my wrist away from his grasp.

“Don’t stop me,” I said, tears streaming down my face.

I walked over to the edge of the roof. I closed my eyes and leaned forward.

I expected myself to already be in the street, lying dead.

But instead, Minhyuk pulled me back again.

“WHY WON’T YOU JUST LET ME?” I screamed. “I DON’T HAVE ANY REASON TO LIVE. MY PARENTS DIED. MY BROTHER DIED. NOW MY BEST FRIEND ALSO DIED. I THOUGHT YOU LIKED ME BUT I SAW YOU KISSING JAENA. WHY DO I EVEN HAVE TO LIVE? NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME!”

He stayed quiet. Then, he cupped my face in both hands and kissed me. It all happened so fast that I didn’t have time to react.

Soon, I kissed him back.

After a while, he pulled back.

“Hyunji, I never liked Jaena. She kissed me. I didn’t even have time to react. I didn’t kiss her back, just so you know,” he said.

“You… You actually liked me?” I asked quietly.

“Hyunji, I love you. Don’t go,” he whispered. He placed his hand on my cheek.

He leaned in and kissed me for the second time.

“Will you still jump off now?”

“I—I think I changed my mind. I have a reason now.”

“And that is?”

“You. Lee Minhyuk, I love you too.”

Then once again, we kissed under the pouring rain.

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Hope i didn't dissapoint with this one ;A;

kissing in the rain ftw :3

/i'm a weirdo. kbye/ ♥