You open your eyes and are a little confused. *Where am I?* You turn around in the big bed and see Bada lying on the floor still sleeping though she normally gets up early. So you decide to open the curtains on the windows seeing that it's still dark outside. You turn around looking thru the strange room yet so familiar. Walking towards the bed again you see a picture of Donghae and you when you still were in school. Donghae! You facepalm yourself realizing you're at his dorm. After you found each other again he immediantely asked you to marry him and how else could you have reacted than saying yes and move together with him? Sleepy you rub your eyes and go to the living room where you find Donghae sleeping on the couch. You go to the kitchen and in the reflection of the silver fridge you see that your eyes are red and puffy. Remembering what happened before sleeping you sadly open the fridge looking for food not even knowing what time it is.

Sorry I kept living my life

A box of noodles is still in the fridge waiting to be eaten so you take it and while passing by the clothes rack you take one of Donghae's jacket with keys in its pockets before leaving out the door. He has a big apartment with a big pretty beautiful roof garden to which you are going right now. 

Is it my fault that you changed into a woman not letting any love reach you anymore

You're standing in the elevator as tears slowly find their ways to your eyes again waiting all together to become big enough to run down your cheeks. You use the long sleeve to wish the tear aways and take a deep breath.

I didn't wait this long to meet you as a person you said you would never become

5, 6, 7, 8, 9, ~beep~ counting the second you need to reach the next floor you always come to another time. 1, 2, 

I don't even want a man like you are now. I'm not the only one who changed.

8, 9, 10, 11, 12. ~beep~ the speed you count changes with every floor. 1, 2, 3, 4, ...

How about growing up

~beep~ You reach the roof and slowly walk towards the lounger to fall down on it. The night sky already shows that the sun is just behind the horizon waiting to come out and lighten up the world. The smell of noodles reaches your nose as you open the box and take the chopsticks to stuff some of it in your mouth. *Donghae..* As little you know about the night sky as little you know about him anymore. Sure you two moved together and were in Lovey Dovey Heaven again but after less than a month you two had to realize that it isn't like you thought it'd be. It started with little surprises like a tattoo he had because he never liked that and that was one thing you liked about him. You are kinda against those stuff with which you had to live now since he changed his opninion to that. Then little fights started over things like alcohol or smoking because you two changed your habits about that and the other was surprised what the other took as an offending reaction. Then the big fights started because you two realized that you aren't the persons you used to be. 
You are kind of strangers to each other.

The box falls to the ground and you cuddle to a ball in his jacket breathing in his smell. Aish you hated it. He used to have such good smelling perfurmes also disliked the ones you disliked. But he changed so much. Not only his look. His long light-red-orange whatever colored hair was cut off and back to the normal black. He used to be a funny, romantic, childish and always positive guy. But now he is so grown up, likes alcohol, smokes, likes tattoos even has one and his friends are those kind of guys you can't stand. Never would you expect that kind of guy to be waiting for someone for years. But he did that for you and now he's just complaining about your changes. That you are so bourgeois and bored. Tears roll out your eyes again as the sunrise has already been starting. The sound of a door breaks 
the silence and you look back seeing Donghae walking in your direction. Whiping away your tears you sit up straight 
again not looking at him as he lets himself fall on the space next to you. Your eyes are fixed on the box when his arms 
wrap around you and pull you to his chest. His warm and inviting chest. "O...oppa.." you mumble. "Baby I'm sorry about 
yesterday and what I said." His strong arms keep you close to his body as the sun rises and you hide your face in his 
neck. Words should be coming out your mouth now but you just have no idea what to say. That it's okay? That you want 
to talk about it? He softly over your hair as he places on kiss on your ear. Yesterday was your biggest fight and 
you didn't even know he could still be this consoling and nice. Maybe he didn't even change as much as you thought? 
You could also change a little. The whole relationship is so sudden and unexpected that you two maybe just need time to
become 'normal'. Why don't you say that? The energy to open your mouth and use your voice just isn't there so you keep
your eyes closed and your head on his shoulder. 
"We both know... This way is no way to go on." He says in a voice that doesn't expect an answer. Also it seemed like he
doesn't know what to say now. Well many choises aren't there. Either he can stop all this or he wants you two to try it 
somehow. But he doesn't say anything. He probably doesn't know either what he wants. Your breathing is long and 
calm feeling his warmth. Not to fall asleep you decide to finally speak. "Do you even want to keep trying?"
You listen to his breathing and notice how he takes a deep breath. "I don't know. This changes we both made are just like
all at once. If we had been together all the time we would have gone thru those things with each other but like this... They
all just crash down on us. Like we meet totally new people." That talking. You crunch your teeth. That talking. It was so 
not Donghae style. At least not the Donghae you used to know. "I guess you're right. But throwing away all this waiting."
You mumble. "Why not forget about the fight and just have a nice day. Getting used to each other again." You slowly
wrap your arms around his neck. "Lets do that." You feel how he relaxes and leans against the louncher as the sounds become quieter and your 
awarness becomes weaker.

You open your eyes lying in the big bed you woke up the first time this day. *Was it all a dream?* Stretching a bit you get out of the bed looking for 
Bada who doesn't seem to be here. Yawning you get into the living room where you see Donghae sitting in a chair with suit and Bada in his arms. 
"Ehm?" You stop and look confused. He sits there peting the dog with one hand while he looks down on her. "Donghae?" He slowly looks up. "I've been
waiting for you." He says in a serious voice which makes you chuckle. "You look like a mafia guy." You say and walk towards him. "I don't only look like one."
He smirks and you slowly sit on his lap, your legs on the left and right of him, when Bada jumps to the floor barking. You wrap your arms around his neck. "What time is it?" - "Time to have a nice day." He smiles at you. "But we first need to throw the dead body in the river." - "Pabo." You giggle and come closer his face barely touching his lips with yours. "I'm serious." He whispers and presses his lips against yours. You smile and let his tongue slide inside your mouth enjoying a finally passionatelly kiss. 
 

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Sorry this took me so long xD I'm too lazy to finish it now... Sooooo here you have a bit keke...... i still dont know what you will do on that special day :S


BTW Sorry for this weird format again... In another ff it is too long and now its so short in some parts... That's when my computer starts being weird and writes an endless long line instead of going into the next line itself.