How would you react?
Falling In Love With Sehun.I stood at the balcony of Sehun's apartment, staring at the night sky. I was dressed in a singlet and shorts, and I had a huge oversized cardigan draped over me. My thoughts flashed back to earlier this morning.
I went up to Luhan the minute school ended and asked "What's wrong with you?"
"Are you and Sehun dating?"
"Wha-?"
"You heard me. Are the two of you dating?"
"...... No."
I felt a presence beside me and I knew it was Sehun. I looked up and saw that he was standing beside me, staring at the sky. Both of us remained silent for a while, and we just stared at the stars. He suddenly said "I'm meeting my mother next week." I widened my eyes in shock and turned to face him. He met my gaze and said "I wonder how it'll turn out. I haven't seen nor spoken to her in almost 4 years. I... don't know why she wants to see me."
He stared at me deeply and said slowly "Is it wrong to feel scared?"
I smiled softly and tucked my hair to the side. "No, it's not."
Both of us were silent again and he suddenly called "Ji-eun ah..."
"Yeah?"
He turned to look at me and leaned in. I staggered back slightly, my heart thumping faster. He asked "How would you feel... if I kissed you right now?" There wasn't a hint of sarcasm in his eyes and his face was eerily calm. I stuttered "U-uh... what?" He leaned in even closer, and just when our lips were about to touch, he suddenly pulled away. I felt an odd disappointment and tried to satiate my crazily beating heart.
He said, with a hint of bitterness in his tone "Oh, sorry, I forgot. You told Luhan that we weren't together, right?" His tone implied that he was angry and his eyes were glittering with a certain grimness that I was too afraid to pry into. I reddened slightly and said "You overheard us?" He didn't say anything but I already knew his answer. I turned back to look at the stars and said softly "Well, are we? You have never said anything... about us. I didn't know what to say."
He kept quiet and I felt really upset. He wasn't answering my question and I suddenly felt like all the oxygen had left my body, as if I had been depending on his reply, but I was left hanging. I didn't know why, but it just hurt so badly, whenever he was being all closed off like this. I didn't want him to shut down again. I didn't want him to leave me.
The silence between us was overpowering me and I had to get out. I was just about to turn and leave when he suddenly said "How would you react if I said I thought about you every day? How would you react if I told you that you're constantly invading my mind, making me feel so frustrated and confused? How would you react if I told you that whenever I see you with another guy, my head gets all hot and I want to rip the two of you apart? How would you react if I told you that I would like nothing more than to hold your hand, but I was afraid that you wouldn't feel the same way?"
..............
"How would you react if I told you I loved you?"
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WOOOOO! Sehun finally admitted his feelings. He probably couldn't hold them in much longer. :p
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