Don’t hesitate anymore please
Just take my heart

I should have seen it coming. To confess to you was like handing you a gun and letting you point it to my head, trusting you not to pull the trigger. I trusted you, LuHan hyung. I offered up my heart to you on a silver platter.

But you pulled the trigger, you just stabbed my heart with a fork and took one big bite without thinking of me.

You chose him.

Yes, the sharper the better
The night even the moonlight closes its eyes

Did you see it as a taunt? A joke, maybe?

I sacrificed so much for you. Even more than you sacrificed for that bastard... But you refused to look at me, at my feelings. You only saw him.

If it was the other man not me,
If it was just a part of some comedy,

I bet it was funny, wasn’t it? Watching me squirm as I offered you those roses, said those cheesy lines. It wouldn’t be so funny anymore if Kai confessed wouldn’t it? I’m just a child to you, a friend, a brother. Nothing more.

Burn all the wounds that you exchanged with your man

But he hurt you, hyung. I have tried so hard to protect you from him. You’d think I know better, being his friend since our diaper days. But no. Ignoring all my warnings, all my advice, you confessed to him.

And now seeing you stagger out of the alley where Kai and his twisted friends you... Are you still laughing at me, hyung?

Baby don’t cry tonight
After the dark goes away

“S-SeHun?” you sob, clutching what was left of your clothes.

It was a cold, cold night. I almost felt sorry for you. Almost.

Baby don’t cry tonight
It’ll be as if it didn’t even happen

But I still love you hyung, I thought as I crouch in front of your weeping form. I your bloody cheek and kiss your swollen eye, my lips stained from the blood seeping from your hairline. I love you so much.

Be grateful, hyung. I’ll end your pain despite all those times you scarred me.

You’re not the one who turns into foam
In the end you’ll never know

“If you love someone, you’ll let them go,” people have told me.... But I don’t want to let you go, hyung. I want to love you...

But I can never be the man you see in Kai, so... I’ll help you. I’ll help you get him back. I’ll help him love you. Thank me hyung...

So baby don’t cry,

Fear flashes across your eyes as I take a switchblade out of my pocket.

“What are you doing, SeHun?” you ask.

“It won’t hurt, hyung,” I promise, tracing the blade up your arm. “Kai will see. He will see all the pain he’s caused you. And he will feel regret. And he will love you. And I’m doing this because I love you too.”

“S-SeHun,” you gasped, too weak to fight back. “Don’t do this.”

Cry

“But I love you, hyung,” I whisper, resting the blade where your heart should be. “I’m only doing this to save you from Kai. And he will love you....”

“Please SeHun--!” You were cut off by your own strangled cry as I plunged the knife deep into your chest. With a splutter, you go limp in my arms.

“Don’t worry, hyung,” I kiss your lips. “He can’t reach you now. And when he misses you, he’ll realize how much he loves you...”

Because my love will protect you.

I’ve saved you, hyung, do you love me now?