"I never wanted this to happen" I sobbed, wetting her pajama pants.

She patted my face lightly. She sang to me softly with her angel voice.

I fell asleep.

She put me to bed and my forehead until she fell asleep next to me.

Next morning I find myself sleeping with Sooyoung. She kept on snoring.

I sat up, not wanting to get out of bed. I sighed heavily as I saw my door open.

Taeyeon walked in and sat on my bed.

Sooyoung woke up and silently crept out of the room.

"Jessica, tell me truthfully, do you love Donghae? You have Heechul already. Don't be such a cheat" Taeyeon said.

So she doesn't believe.

I didn't reply.

"Taeyeon, I have been with you more than anyone here. Why don't you believe me?"I finally letted out.

I walked to the bathroom, meeting Yoona on the way.

She gave me a glare and went to her room.

I followed her.

"Yah, Yoona. Why do you trust Donghae more than me? I'm telling you, Donghae asked me out. If you don't trust me then, you are not worthy for a SNSD member!!!"

"No, you're not. Everyone believes me not you"

I went quiet.

"Sooyoung trusts me" I whispered and went to my room.

I kept on crying.

I went to the toilet and washed my face, tie my hair in a bun and put makeup on me.

I went back to dress myself.

I saw my phone buzz.

2 messages.

"No schedules for you today, get some rest" -Manager

"Hey, I have no schedule, wanna go out?"- Heechul

I quickly texted Heechul.

"Sure"

I got dressed in Sooyoung's yellow top and a denim skirt.

I saw my members, watching tv and eating. I secretly grabbed a toast.

I wore my black flats and quietly got my bag and I left the dorm without anyone noticing me.

"Where do I meet you?" I texted.

I went outside and wore my disguise.

"The cafe"

I walked to the cafe and saw no one.

I ordered a slice of mudcake and sat down and ate my toast, juice and cake.

I waited for 10 minutes.

"Where are you?"I texted.

"At the park. Meet me there"

I walked to the park. I saw a guy, with brown hair.

I guess Heechul dyed his hair.

I called him.

"Hey, I think I see you. Wave" I said.

I saw the guy wave.

I ran to him and hugged him from the back.

I hear him laugh.

He turned around, and I found Donghae.

"What do you think you are doing?! You broken my heart, so get lost"I said.

I went to walk back but he pulled me back.

"Look..."he said apologeticlly(?).

I crossed my arms and looked away.

"I'm sorry. Yoona won't believe me, when I told her it was my fault. Come on, I'll take you for a drive"

I went to his car and sat on the front seat.

He drove to this highway.

I pulled down the windows as I felt the cool wind.

I looked at him driving. Why can't I get over you?

He parked at a green and grassy place, where no one was here.

I sat in the car.

He looked at me.

"You got some chocolate on your face" he said. I looked at him as he wiped it off for me.

I started blushing.

I got ou of the car as he did as well.

I sat on the grass and layed down looking at the clouds.

He did the same.

I closed my eyes for 5 minutes. When I opened them I found Donghae on me.

I pushed him back and he eneded up laughing.

"Weirdo" I said."What are you looking at?" when he looked at me.

"Nothing. You're very pretty lately"

I smiled lightly.

"Why did you reject me that day?"

"I told you, I hated you."

"Then why did you kiss me.......before"

There was a long pause.

"Because I love you now" He climbed on me and kissed me passionetly.

I don't know why I kissed him back.