Out of my Grasp

I am Ahn Sohee.

He is Kim Heechul.

I am a member of 'Wonder Girls'.

He is a member of 'Super Junior'.

I am 19.

He is 28.

I am female.

He is male.

I hate cats.

He loves cats.

Would you like to hear our story?

Here it is.

I meet him one day.

He tells me he loves me.

I do not reply.

He then tells me he is going to the army.

I bid him farewell.

A sad smile was plastered on his face.

I gave a smile of no emotion.

Heechul puts his hand on my shoulder and walks past me.

The moment he passed, tears started to fall.

I turn back and look at him.

He doesn't spare me a single glance.

I try to call out his name.

He doesn't hear since I was to quiet.

I can't see him anymore as the tears blur my vision.

From my blurred sight, I can see him take out a tissue and wipe his tears away.

I take a step towards his fleeting figure.

He walks farther away from me.

I fall to my knees.

He doesn't notice and fades into the distance.

I put my hand out unconciously.

He has already left my grasp.

I walk home in silence.

My only friend was the wind.

I see the other 'Wonder Girls' members.

They ask if I'm alright.

I tell them that I am.

Tear stains were on my cheeks which I hadn't noticed tell them I'm lying.

I tell them that he was going to the army.

They sympathize with me.

I thank them.

They ask me if I love him.

I say I don't know.

They tell me if I don't tell him anything, I'll regret it.

That night, my mind wanders.
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He texted me.

I texted back.

He asks if I have a schedule tomorrow.

I realised he wanted me to see him off at the airport.

He asks if I'll go.

I agree without hesitation.

He thanks me.

I tell him it's alright.

He told me he was happy I would be there to see him go.

I said I would miss him.

Once again, he tells me that he loves me.

Once again, I don't reply.

Once again, he has already left my grasp

I go to the airport.

He looks for me.

I go greet him.

He smiles at me kindly.

I smile back.

He says he has a poster of me in his locker.

I blush and thank him.

He says that he'll miss me.

I tell him I will miss him.

He tells me a lame joke.

I say the correct answer to it.

He tries to hide his disappointment that I knew the answer.

I simply giggle and smile.

Soon, it is time for him to leave.

He tells me he loves me like the day before.

I didn't reply to his words.

He frowned sadly.

I felt the tears slowly my eyes.

He hugs me tightly.

I hug him back.

He releases me and collects his things.

I watch in silence.

He forced a smile and said he'd be back safe and sound.

I tell him to be back soon.

He smiles at me, sadness still lingering.

I smile back, tears threatening to spill.

He turns his back to me and walks away.

Tears finally spill out.

He doesn't look back.

I cover my face with my hands.

Heechul wipes his tears with the sleeve of his shirt.

I try to call his name.

He can't hear me.

I put my hand out once again.

He has already left my grasp.