I stood surrounded but completely lonely; wrapped in tension and feeling empty. I watched as my boys had their hearts ripped out by the words of the song they were performing; for us. They were only boys; young at their marred hearts but filled with determination to fulfill their dream. It was heart breaking to watch them go through this; even Changmin, the ever snarky hyung tormentor, looked horribly betrayed and struggled to keep his emotions from surfacing, in turn failing to extend their last song by one more second.

My eyes closed as I reminisced their happiest moments as I smiled with bitter longing. I replayed those moments in my head, listening to the cries of everyone around me. When my eyes had opened, I gazed upon the boys that had changed my view of life and brought me a painful happiness that longed for more. I let a tear slip, still watching my boys as their emotions fought to take over their beautiful features and I couldn’t help but wonder in remorse.

I wonder if they felt it falling apart