Still Alive


Life goes on. Routines. Going fast, moving nowhere. What do you look forward to when nothing's changed?

Standby, pause. Work hard, barely sleep.

Guilt. Just don't think about it too much. Thinking makes it worse.

Too confused to work.

Too tired to sleep.

Good luck finding that light at the end of the tunnel.

If it even exists.


(Word count: 32.113)

Not my first story, but my first KPOP fic.
It's a GTOP! But be warned, it'll take a lot of time to develop and I'm definitely not a writer ._.
I have to set up the pretense so it'll hopefully actually be a good story. I'm planning on it being nice and long.
But be patient and stick with me?
I tweaked the living situation of the group a bit just so I didn't have to worry about it being perfectly correct.
I really hope you all like it, I'm excited to see where it goes!
If you want to make another banner for this for any weird reason I'd love to include it!
I'd love to talk to you if you want! Any fans of Bigbang are friends of mine =3=

(Just gonna put it out there that I totally hate the title now myself so don't judge me on it ._.)

Huge thanks to Squelettique for my BEAUTIFUL banner!

100 subscribers, oh my god, I really can't. Thank you all so much for reading! (ノ◕ヮ◕)ノ*:・゚✧*:・゚✧*

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bluedandelions #1
Chapter 2: I thought it was Youngbae who got annoyed by Tops dirty habits?
Anyways I like how its started.
MSkyDragons #2
I love all the emotions this fanfic brought out in me. I can relate to TOP's sleeping problems and I love how you can see their relationship slowly developing, as opposed to them just falling in love immediately. Absolutely brilliant!
WenZhen #3
Chapter 17: I was so... ANGRYYYY with Seunghyun for hurting my baby this way :'( I found him to be so cowardly and selfish, especially with how he treated Yongbae.. That's just some super amazing characterization right there! Really! I rarely feel so passionately for first-person fics that aren't GD-centric (I'm ridiculously biased I know ><;;) but your portrayal of Seunghyun is so interesting and 3-Dimensional! And it all seems rather believable given how he seemed abit cold and unresponsive towards GD during the ALIVE promotions. I did feel a tiny teeeeny weeeny bit outraged at how Seunghyun managed to resolve everything so neatly though (and not giving enough justice to the heartbreak he did to GD </3). But overall I really love this story :) thanks for writing this!
verine #4
First, thanks for sharing. I like the portrayal of Jiyong and TOP which still in character in my opinion and you clearly show the 'progress' and 'development' of their relationship. I'm tired reading fics where they don't have feeling with each other but then suddenly fall in love with each other. Good ending too LOL.

Now, for the constructive critism since I think u are a talented author..I know u have warned that the development will take a long time and u give good reason. BUT, the story is too slow paced. I fully agree that we need to see the progress (which is your good point) but I feel there are some unnecessary details that only make the chapter looked so long. In the end, I skipped many scenes in some chapters and I still get the flow of the story. I hope in the future, when u make another story with long progress, u may include only things that we have to read to understand the story, since the chapters would be long already.

Okay, that's it, again, thanks for sharing and wish to see u again in the future <3
[deactivated] #5
Chapter 17: This is amazing!~
thya-aryssa #6
Chapter 17: FANTASTIC BABY!!!

im gonna re-read this & put a longer comment :-)
GirlSwag #7
Chapter 17: I think that my be the best written story a I havecread here so far. You are really talented!
Just sat down and read all of this and it is ____ing amazing!
The plot, the fights, the emotions, the description. All of it. Perfect!
I feel I can relate to TOPs sleeping habits and all that for some reason..:3
Anyhow, I absoloutley adored this fic:')
I'll be looking forward to mor of your GTOP goodness-if you choose to be awesome and write more!
Oh god my feel!>__< xoxoxoxox
TheAlmightyStarlight #9
*tears of sadness because it's completely over mixed with tears of happiness because the ending was just so awesome and adorable and sweet and gehhh*
Aaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhh I'm smiling like an idiot right now. >.<
That was just so GOOD~~! And amazing and fantastic and wonderful and all those other good adjectives that I can't seem to think of right now.
And my laptop survived! I never threw it at the wall. ^-^
I'm so glad I found this story, and it has made me so happy~! And also quite frustrated at times, but...that isn't the point. XP
You know a story is awesome when it can evoke emotions like that.
And I'm pretty sure you've been able to understand how much I love it, since my comments are always freaking ridiculously long.
Anyways, congrats on finally finishing it~!
I know how hard it was on you to finally wrap it all up~~
But don't worry, it was a WONDERFUL ending~! ^-^
<3 <3 <3 <3
Please please pleaseeee write more GTOP fics in the future~!
(A sequel to this would be awesome *cough cough*) ^-^ <3
But either way ^-^
I shall faithfully read whatever you write. *nod*
.... I think I'll go re-read this.
^-^ *hugs*
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3