When I woke up early in the morning, Director Friedman called me. He told me to go to his office in the afternoon. I took a shower and 

ate my breakfast. I took a rest for a while and when the clock striked 1 pm, I changed clothes and went to Director Friedman's office.

I went inside his office and we had a talk. He told me that we will start the rehearsals for the live shows starting two days from now. I

should start designing retro clothes for our dance. After we had a talk, I went out from his office and went to the elevator. While I was

waiting for the elevator, I saw Zayn standing beside me. I looked at him and he looked at me.

"Why are you here?" we both said

"You first" he said

"I went to Director Friedman's office"

He nodded

"How about you?"

"I went here to know if the boys were here"

"You don't know where they are?" I asked

"No"

The elevator opened and we went inside, Zayn clicked the 1st floor

"So, what are you going to do?" I asked him

He shrugged his shoulders

I nodded and looked away

There was a complete silence when we were inside the elevator. When we went outside, Zayn asked "Are you free today?"

I looked at him "Why?"

"I want you to come with me"

"Where?" 

He grabbed my hands and we went outside the building. We went to the parking lot and we hopped inside the car. He started the

engine and started to drive.

"Where are we going?" I asked him

He didn't answer my question

I sighed and looked away. While we were inside the car, I fell asleep. When I woke up, Zayn was not beside me. I looked at the 

surroundings and we were in a beach. A beach where there is no people. A beach where you can take some time for yourself. I 

went outside the car and I saw Zayn from afar. He was sitting on the sand. I went towards him. I sat beside him. The wind was really

strong and you can hear the waves of the sea. 

"I keep on hiding this..." he mummbled

I looked at him

He continued "I don't know when can I keep this. Maybe forever"

"Wait, I can't understand you"

"People always don't understand my feelings and I can't force them"

He looked at me

"What is this all about?" I asked him

"I can't tell you now, it's not yet the perfect time"

"But I can help you"

"No..." he looked away

"Watching that special someone with other guy just broke my heart. I don't know when can I be like this, watching her happy with

someone else. I know I can love her more than that guy loves her but it's not that easy to show her how I feel"

He looked down

I touched his hands "If you really love that special someone, go tell her how you really feel for her"

"It's not that easy" he said still looking down

"Why?"

"What if she doesn't feel the same way for me?" he looked at me

I took a deep breath "It's okay at least she already knows that you really love her. Someday she will realize that"

"But it's not allowed. She's already with someone else that she really loves"

"Just tell her so she can know about it. And your feelings for her won't be kept forever"

"No..." he looked down

"Zayn, I'm helping you"

"Your just making things complicated" he looked at me

"I'm not. I'm helping you so that she can know about it and she will notice you"

"She already noticed me"

"But she doesn't know how you feel for him"

"How can I tell her that I really like her?" he stared directly to my eyes

"Call her. I'll help you"

He got his phone from his pocket. He dialed the number and called her. While we were waiting, my phone rang. Maybe this is Louis

asking me where am I right now. Zayn looked at me and I got my phone from my pocket. When I looked at my phone, I saw Zayn's 

name on it. My eyes went huge and I looked at him. I answered the call 

"I really like you" 

I was speechless. I don't know what to answer. I was completely staring at him. He hang up the phone and looked down. I took a 

deep breath

"I told you, things will just go complicated"

I looked away and a tear fell from my eyes. I don't know why I'm crying right now. Maybe tears of joy? Or what?

He wiped the tears away from my eyes. I looked at him straightly to his eyes

"Zayn... why only now? Why?"

He was confused

"I really really like you. To be with you is my dream but that dream disappeared when Louis told me that he loves me. I thought that 

you don't have feelings for me so I gave Louis a chance..." 

I took a deep breath "And it worked out. I love Louis and I don't want to lose him"

Tears kept on falling from my eyes

"The first day we met in US, I already like you. I saw you watching at the boutique shop then I grabbed your hand because maybe

that would be the way to know your name. I was acting stupid at that time so I can really know what would be your reaction. You

were really bursting out at that time but I find it cute. When I went back to the hotel, I was really thinking of you. You are different

from the other girls. There was one time that we got interviewed, I told the reporters that I like a girl from New Jersey and they were

starting to ask different questions. Actually, I was referring to you"

I laughed "I saw that interview"

"See, your laughing now" he smiled 

"Zayn, I can't give you what you really need" I looked at him

"It's okay, I understand. As what you said a while ago, someday you will realize"

"What we talked here will stay here, okay?" 

"What we talked here will remain confidential?" he asked

I nodded "I don't want to hurt Louis"

"Me too"

Zayn pulled me for a tight hug "I will always be here for you... I love you"

I let go of him and smiled. We decided to go back to the car and he started to drive. I looked at him while driving and he looked at me

and looked away

"What?" he asked

"Nothing" I smiled

"Where are we going?" I asked him

"I'm going to send you home"

I nodded 

"I hope Louis won't know about this" 

"He won't. You love him and he really loves you"

"Zayn... stop"

He looked at me "What?"

"Stop saying that, you are just hurting yourself"

He looked at the driveway "I'm already hurt"

I took a deep breath "I did not intend to hurt you"

"It's okay. I'm used to it"

I'm really confused right now. My heart kept on telling that I have still feelings for Zayn but my mind keeps on telling me that I should

not tell him. I really don't know what to do right now. When we arrived in front of our house, there was an awkward moment. Zayn

broke the silence.

"Jessy, I will wait for you" 

I looked at him and touched his hands "Zayn, you don't have to"

"But I want to. It's my decision"

I smiled at him "I'll go inside. Take care"

"Take care" he said

I went outside the car and went inside the house. When I went inside the house, I went inside my room. I saw Louis lying down on

my bed. His eyes were closed. I think he was waiting for me. I lay beside him and kissed his forehead. He opened his eyes and

smiled at me. He pulled me closer to him

"Where have you been?" he asked

"I went to Director Friedman's office. You?"

"We had rehearsals for our world tour. Have you seen Zayn?"

I'm now nervous. I don't know what to answer

"Why?"

"He didn't went to our rehearsals"

I decided not to lie because I love Louis "We met at Director Friedman's office"

He looked at me "What is he doing there?"

"I don't know"

"What are you doing in Brian's office?"

"He told me that our rehearsals will start two days from now and I should start designing retro clothes for our dance"

"That's good to hear"

I smiled at him 

I closed my eyes and sighed "Louis, always think that I love you"

He looked at me and I opened my eyes

"I don't want to lose you"

He kissed my forehead "I love you too"

I smiled at him

His phone rang and he answered the call. After he answered the call, he stood up

"I need to go back for our rehearsals"

I sat up and nodded

"I just went here to check on you"

I smiled at him

"I'll go now. Take care" he kissed my lips 

"Take care" 

He went away and I lay down on my bed. I don't know what to do. Two guys love me and I do love them but I don't want to lose Louis.

I should take some rest.