“Please don’t wait for me~”

Those words were echoing again on my mind for the nth times. Even though he didn’t say it directly to me, but I was pretty sure; from the moment I saw it written on his cyworld home page; that it was purposely written there for my eyes to see. I hold back on to my chest, where my aching heart was. Tears started to become visible in the corner of my eyes as those words kept repeating on my mind and the memories of what had happened that day came to me. Why were you being like this to me?

I stopped myself from crying and the probability of sobbing before it was too late to stop. I didn’t want my unnies to know about this problem. It might harm the bond that ‘this family’ built since years ago, which had been there before I joined the group, before people knew me as KARA’s Kang Jiyoung, even before Nicole unnie came to the company. No…no…I wasn’t talking about KARA…only, but it was about the whole DSP family, or to be exact, about Double Melody family. That was how the fans called us, SS501 & KARA.

I shut down my notebook and took a deep-long-heavy breath before I rose up from my seat and walked to the bathroom to wash my face, a small act to prevent my eyes from swollen. I looked into myself through the mirror and found a girl with tired face and red eyes. I let out a deep sigh; hoping that it would be better by the morning; then walked away to my bedroom that I shared with Hara unnie. I sneaked in to the dark bedroom, closed the door and quietly walked toward my bed, carefully on my every action, tried to not make any sound that could wake my sleeping Hara unnie up.

“Let’s sleep Kang Jiyoung~ and by the time when you wake up on the morning, you’ll forget everything, you won’t feel the pain on your heart anymore.” Whispering to myself, I lied down on the bed and covered myself with the warm blanket that I brought along from my home when I moved to this dorm. I rolled up to the other side, hugging the pillow and closed my eyes. Goodnight.

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Author's note:

I decided to post a part of it first and post the rest later. I don't know why I do this, maybe because I want to see the reaction(?) lol

well~ please wait a little bit for the rest, and it will be complete since I wrote this as oneshot. ENJOY :D